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| Mon, 08-23-2004 - 9:53pm |
Hi Ladies,
It's been a while since I've visited, Hope no one's forgotten about me yet. LOL. Well things have been okay so far. Things with my ex have been weird lately. He's dead set on trying to do everything under the sun to prove to me that he loves me and wants to be with me except for the one thing I need him to do, which is just move on. I've come to the conclusion that even regardless if I could be with him, that his family would never accept it, because I don't have one child, I have four. I'm not willing to sacrifice my pride for anyone. I've already said that his family was an issue because of religion, but like I said, I am also in the religion except I'm not baptized, and true christians would accept someone no matter what and honestly I KNOW he doesn't have the nerve to confront them face on about us, so I keep telling him that I wish he would stop trying, but lately it's gotten worse.
Flowers to work and sentimental emails. I've gotten concert tickets sent to my house for me and my best friend. (And yes,I did go) I love the man, I have no doubt that I want to be with him as much as I do, but until he takes that step, I will not let him in. I do talk to him on the phone, and there has been times I've cried and said I love you, he knows that I do. But he says to give it time, and I don't want to. I can't live a lie anymore. I've lived it for the last year but my heart runs so deep for this man that I can't COMPLETELY walk away like I should. So, I just try to avoid him as much as I can.
As for the ex-husband. Well, he's got another new woman in the house,and he's been giving me a real hard time all over again. He hasn't seen the kids in 3 weeks. This past weekend was his weekend and it blew by like nothing. He hasn't called them either. I found out a whole bunch of horrible things he's told my children since they've been visiting anyway. When I went to pick them up the last time it was his weekend, he blew up on me because I asked him to cut their hair. He flipped out. Mind you, I had bought him a whole bunch of groceries the day before because he was complaining he had no food but wanted to see the kids. But the next the I was refered to as a no good piece of s**t. He screamed at me that I was too lazy to take the kids to the barber (mind you he's been cutting their hair for years, and why pay when their dad can do it for free!!) and a whole mess of other stuff. He actually had the nerve to say I can take the groceries cause he doesn't want anything from me- of course she was there. I've never met this woman and I gave no impression that I was there to argue with him. Why he wanted to make me look bad is beyond me.
So I took my kids out of there and I gave them a haircut the next day. I'v talked to my kids and they told me all kinds of crazy things he's said. Down to the fact that my SO will never be their step dad because he really doesn't love mommy, because mommy's too mean for anyone to love, so they'll have to face the fact of me being alone and unhappy for the rest of our lives. (the "mean" part was far more explicit) and I had to hear this from my 9 year old.
Anyway, so I don't think I want them going back anyway. I've called a lawyer about full custody (I only have partial now)so we'll see what happens. But anyway,that pretty much sums it up. Things have been pretty hectic lately. One good thing I have to say is that the boys' rooms have been coming along nicely. Anyway, I hope you ladies are doing far better. It can only go up from here for me. Thanks for listening.
It's been a while since I've visited, Hope no one's forgotten about me yet. LOL. Well things have been okay so far. Things with my ex have been weird lately. He's dead set on trying to do everything under the sun to prove to me that he loves me and wants to be with me except for the one thing I need him to do, which is just move on. I've come to the conclusion that even regardless if I could be with him, that his family would never accept it, because I don't have one child, I have four. I'm not willing to sacrifice my pride for anyone. I've already said that his family was an issue because of religion, but like I said, I am also in the religion except I'm not baptized, and true christians would accept someone no matter what and honestly I KNOW he doesn't have the nerve to confront them face on about us, so I keep telling him that I wish he would stop trying, but lately it's gotten worse.
Flowers to work and sentimental emails. I've gotten concert tickets sent to my house for me and my best friend. (And yes,I did go) I love the man, I have no doubt that I want to be with him as much as I do, but until he takes that step, I will not let him in. I do talk to him on the phone, and there has been times I've cried and said I love you, he knows that I do. But he says to give it time, and I don't want to. I can't live a lie anymore. I've lived it for the last year but my heart runs so deep for this man that I can't COMPLETELY walk away like I should. So, I just try to avoid him as much as I can.
As for the ex-husband. Well, he's got another new woman in the house,and he's been giving me a real hard time all over again. He hasn't seen the kids in 3 weeks. This past weekend was his weekend and it blew by like nothing. He hasn't called them either. I found out a whole bunch of horrible things he's told my children since they've been visiting anyway. When I went to pick them up the last time it was his weekend, he blew up on me because I asked him to cut their hair. He flipped out. Mind you, I had bought him a whole bunch of groceries the day before because he was complaining he had no food but wanted to see the kids. But the next the I was refered to as a no good piece of s**t. He screamed at me that I was too lazy to take the kids to the barber (mind you he's been cutting their hair for years, and why pay when their dad can do it for free!!) and a whole mess of other stuff. He actually had the nerve to say I can take the groceries cause he doesn't want anything from me- of course she was there. I've never met this woman and I gave no impression that I was there to argue with him. Why he wanted to make me look bad is beyond me.
So I took my kids out of there and I gave them a haircut the next day. I'v talked to my kids and they told me all kinds of crazy things he's said. Down to the fact that my SO will never be their step dad because he really doesn't love mommy, because mommy's too mean for anyone to love, so they'll have to face the fact of me being alone and unhappy for the rest of our lives. (the "mean" part was far more explicit) and I had to hear this from my 9 year old.
Anyway, so I don't think I want them going back anyway. I've called a lawyer about full custody (I only have partial now)so we'll see what happens. But anyway,that pretty much sums it up. Things have been pretty hectic lately. One good thing I have to say is that the boys' rooms have been coming along nicely. Anyway, I hope you ladies are doing far better. It can only go up from here for me. Thanks for listening.

candi
Hi there
Your ex sounds like a real jerk.