I've impressed myself
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| Wed, 11-05-2008 - 6:59pm |
I'm actually really proud of myself today... i've manage to keep a steady mood this month without freaking out. Yay, me!! I don't feel out of control with MM or overly fearful. I don't feel my mind racing and i'm not overanalyzing. I'm "going with the flow" but not in a bad way. In a way, i think, that allows me to enjoy the moment. I am aware of how i'm feeling, moving slowly without too much expectation or over excitement. Not getting ahead etc. Wow, i'm impressed with myself.
The coming week looks good. MM and I have at least three dates planned over the next 10 days (and probably more little rendevues )... A date tomorrow night, Monday night "Heroes", and a whole evening on Friday night. As nature would have it, i started my period so that will keep things from getting physical... at least for the next week. Maybe that is just the right amount of time to sort things out. I have a feeling that with all this time that we have planned to spend together, the "clear the air" talk will come up naturally.
Again, what do I want? I'm still unsure... i've never wanted a serious relationship in the past... i just didn't feel i was ready emotionally or otherwise. Could things be changing?.. maybe. I kinda like things the way they are with MM... steady contact, reassurance, a connection on multiple levels etc. I genuinely feel like his friend and i don't think that will change as we get closer.. I think the friendship helped to lay down a foundation of trust (which is huge for me). Bottom line, though, is i'm growing. yay.
Loonybunny

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Hmmm... you're saying "date", I'm seeing "hookup"...
Please don't be mad at me, but everytime you talk about MM, this song pops into my head:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X75mry1LcFg
(for those of you at work, she says B!tch at :47)
LOL!!! That is perfect.
Loony - It sounds great that you have an actual date. yay! I do agree with Alison that another conversation is in order before you let things get too physical. But first and foremost you must know what you want out of this.
I am going to have to make it out to another meetup before too long so I can check out the situation in person before forming any sort of real opinion. :D
Girlfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!
"sounds like a date to me."
Sounds like an evening out.
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=43842637
Better?
Fits, doesn't it?
Loony - just make sure he's not playing kissy face with anyone else, ok? I'd hate for you to end up in that situation. If he said he doesn't want to commit, then please believe him. Unless he has told you he wants to be with you exclusively for a long time, don't just make that assumption. I don't want to see you get hurt; none of us do.
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