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living with papers update
| Wed, 05-28-2008 - 10:14pm |
Well I feel a bit MIA on here so I thought I would give a tiny update. There is much stressing going on at my place still over the real estate situation.
Still no for sale sign up in front of the house but I am not going to assume that she has changed her mind. I have asked the others in the building if they know any updates on the situation and nobody has answers. I hesitate to contact the landlord because here finally her procrastination on dealing with the property might be a good thing if eventually she just takes her sweet time selling. More time for me to save and improve the credit score, shop lenders etc, right? I may cave though and email her before long just because I dont know how long I can take the mystery of it all.
I am waiting for my accountant to finish my taxes still which is starting to irk me and SYB is still finishing his paperwork as well. I am getting antsy now and we are arguing a lot. I am preparing the Tchaikovsky Concerto for a concert in August and that is enough to make me cry a river but I was in tears last night over nothing in particular and I just know I will feel better once the lender has all of our stuff. I am still saving like crazy and working a lot so this part is going well. My finances are looking better and better but I still think we will be house poor once we come up with a downpayment and closing costs. So be it if it gets us stabilized and somewhere good but all of it is hard on my system for now.
Meanwhile, new students are calling and concerts are coming so all of that is good. I have moved forward with plans on starting a music program after school for my son's school and have met with church where I want to start a young artists concert series next year so those two projects are plugging away. I actually have MADE myself go to therapy twice a month for the past few months to make sure I dont drop these projects because they are so close to my heart and I dont want to see this most recent housing crisis derail things that will bring me such joy and truly nourish my spirit all next year.
So overall I am feeling both very tired and vulnerable and also very strong for keeping everything up and juggling well all things considered.
I also had a romantic mid afternoon sieste with SYB and he let me give him a hair cut so that relaxed me and felt very intimate and romantic - boy did we both need that. What is it bout someone letting you trim their hair? If I were a hairdresser I would be horny ALL THE TIME! OK TMI....sorry!!
Still no for sale sign up in front of the house but I am not going to assume that she has changed her mind. I have asked the others in the building if they know any updates on the situation and nobody has answers. I hesitate to contact the landlord because here finally her procrastination on dealing with the property might be a good thing if eventually she just takes her sweet time selling. More time for me to save and improve the credit score, shop lenders etc, right? I may cave though and email her before long just because I dont know how long I can take the mystery of it all.
I am waiting for my accountant to finish my taxes still which is starting to irk me and SYB is still finishing his paperwork as well. I am getting antsy now and we are arguing a lot. I am preparing the Tchaikovsky Concerto for a concert in August and that is enough to make me cry a river but I was in tears last night over nothing in particular and I just know I will feel better once the lender has all of our stuff. I am still saving like crazy and working a lot so this part is going well. My finances are looking better and better but I still think we will be house poor once we come up with a downpayment and closing costs. So be it if it gets us stabilized and somewhere good but all of it is hard on my system for now.
Meanwhile, new students are calling and concerts are coming so all of that is good. I have moved forward with plans on starting a music program after school for my son's school and have met with church where I want to start a young artists concert series next year so those two projects are plugging away. I actually have MADE myself go to therapy twice a month for the past few months to make sure I dont drop these projects because they are so close to my heart and I dont want to see this most recent housing crisis derail things that will bring me such joy and truly nourish my spirit all next year.
So overall I am feeling both very tired and vulnerable and also very strong for keeping everything up and juggling well all things considered.
I also had a romantic mid afternoon sieste with SYB and he let me give him a hair cut so that relaxed me and felt very intimate and romantic - boy did we both need that. What is it bout someone letting you trim their hair? If I were a hairdresser I would be horny ALL THE TIME! OK TMI....sorry!!



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City, I am cracking up at the last line about the hairdresser. Sounds like you are really on top of a lot of stressful things at once and doing the best you can to hold a lot of balls up in the air - a lot of people would crack under all that.
But what I couldn't help thinking, was, why not more siestas and haircuts? hehehe!! Amen to the self employed benefits!!
Good to see you back. Sounds like a good update inspite of housing stress.
Had to comment on hair cut: recently Biker let me trim his hair. I had lost that previlege coz last time I did a noticabily bad job ..people asked him "did you get a hair cut..hmm dont worry it will grow back"..lol.So I was all set to change that opinion. I went to walmart and got a kit that helps you trim nicely. And now this time I somehow made him agree "just one more time"..Poor guy was thinking I will spoil it. But I did great this time. So looks like I will be his regular barber- I can style his hair the way I want yay! Isnt it sexy job- giving a nice massage and toushing his shoulders now and then..I wonder if the lady who gives him haircut regularly thinks that way !
So are you using a kit or are you just good at giving a good hair cut?
Maybe I should be a hairdresser part time for the rest of this year to boost my profit and loss for 2008 as well as my sex life thus relaxing me and making the whole world a better place? OK I went too far....See how my head is spinning?
If you're like me and can't remember what piece City's talking about, here's the
I am trying hard to not listen to recordings right now because it influences my decisions too much and I want to find my own way. I performed it for the first time with the NSO when I was fifteen, and I can still remember those performances lke they were yesterday. The first performance I had with them this horrific thing happened which will stay burned in me forever. I was playing just the third movement for a kiddie concert at the Kennedy Center and I was very nervous since it was my first time with the symphony and I only had one rehearsal. My parents were both there and I had to really muster up courage because the thing is HARD and I wanted to really own it. Within five measures ( maybe 8 seconds) my E string popped - sprang out and hit me right beneath the eye. The E string is the smallest of them and it cut me and because the skin is thin there it bled. I froze and immediately looked for my Mom and her head was down and my father had his arm around her - neither of them looked up and the hall is so gigantic there I felt just paralyzed not knowing what to do. The conductor touched me and said briskly but kindly that I should go backstage and change the string, clean up and come right back out and start over. I dont even remember what happened next except it went fine - I was so scared!!
I have played it since of course but it is interesting how much of it just stays in your system and is ready to be pulled out, brushed off and polished. I do love the process but the brushing off and polishing takes massive amounts of time. It is kind of hard to do when you arent totally tunnel visioned about it because the piece is so large and there are so many pages to review each day while you teach your body how to remember all of the intricacies. If you dont touch a page for a day, it acts like a child left in a room with just matches - trouble everywhere. So lately I am seeing slower progress because I cannot be totally tunnel visioned with the loan stuff everywhere and housing worries...I can only hope things will get better next week once our paperwork is done.
It is gorgeous though. It will be easy to lose myself in it when the rest of life simmers a bit!!
By the way, the whole thing is around 40 minutes I think. I guess it depends on how slow you take the second movement primarily - some take it very slow. Most race through the third. Tempi changes or decisions dont seem to effect the first movement's length in time. So memorizing it is also a bit of a hoop to jump through. By July I will be starting my normal routine of running through the whole thing by memory every day and recording results and by August I will be literally inviting myself to people's houses for dinner so that I can run it through and learn to deal with the adrenalin issues. It is all a process I enjoy very much really. You are making me look forward to it just by writing it out!
City, all I can say is 'AMAZING!'
I've already blown my budget for travel this summer.
And thanks for sending luck - I will take as much as I can over here:)
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