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Mark's personal life update
| Wed, 03-12-2008 - 4:03pm |
This past Saturday I had M over for dinner with the intent to go out to hear some live music somewhere.
| Wed, 03-12-2008 - 4:03pm |
This past Saturday I had M over for dinner with the intent to go out to hear some live music somewhere.
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<*the camera pans in on Pac Sun smoothing calomine over her road rash looking legs...ooooh sexy! Tune in next time folks to see how far the rash has spead!*>
HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
If I'm Lucille Ball - you are DEFINITELY our Ethel Mertz!
If I'm Lucille Ball - you are DEFINITELY our Ethel Mertz!
You got it!!!!!
I am so glad things went so well! It sounds like a really nice evening. DO you find that you two have a lot in common as well as a bit of a spark? All sounds great!
As for the date cam, that's
I just got off the phone with CNDG so we can arrange how and when we are going to meet in order to go to Cirque Du Soleil tomorrow night. She asked me about my Match coffee date (with Debbie). I told her about how she lied about her age and how she invited me to see Ladysmith Black Mambazo. I did tell her that doing the Match thing was good because I was not in an emotional space to create a relationship with anyone so therefore I did not have any expectations or attachments in doing so with anyone I did meet. I told her that I have scared women away from me wanting a relationship before.
I felt funny talking about her to the woman I still have hopes to create a romantic relationship with. I switch subjects back to asking her about her experience on Match so far.
She has not actually met anyone yet but is in email/IM correspondence with a couple of guys. I told her that it is best to actually meet them or else doing the e-communication creates a sense of false intimacy. She asked if she should initiate/ask them to meet. I cannot believe I’m giving her all these tips but I hope in the long run it will benefit ME.
She did tell me that she realized that one of the things that is important to her is someone who can write intelligently. She got hooked by this guy’s well written profile but he is a dolt on IM. She thinks that someone else wrote it LOL.
We had a nice conversation but dang I miss her! I told her that too. She said that she misses me as well but it was not in the same way as how I conveyed my missing. Ouch.
I checked in with Debbie at work and she was appreciative of that. She thanked me again for last night. Tonight I’m wiped out from the 2 (!) bottles of wine (used some for the dinner dish) we polished off last night and the 10 mile Stairmaster workout yesterday. Today I’ll give Chili a short walk and then bed.
Mark who feels the ache
Edited 3/13/2008 10:25 pm ET by mhash
Edited 3/14/2008 6:20 am ET by mhash
OK here at home after being with CNDG and DD14 at Cirque Du Soleil tonight. I decided to have dinner w/just DD in order to have quality one-on-one time with her. We met CNDG and drove over in her car to the tent. We had a really good time. CNDG was very appreciative. She liked the tennis ball gift and made the comment on how I manage to pick the right thing to give to her. I held her hand, put my arm around her shoulders and waist during the evening. We hugged and kissed her on the cheek at the end of the night. I told her that the ball is now in her court. I really hope we can figure out a way to be together for I really have deep feelings with her.
Tomorrow I will drive 2 hours South to join Debbie for dinner then the Ladysmith Black Mambazo concert and then drive back home. I REALLY don't like driving, especially by myself. Debbie went down today to be with her 34? yr old son and will stay until Sunday. I do have chemistry for her but ...
I am not conflicted by quote having unquote women in my life. In reality I have neither. CNDG is still exploring, growing. I just started with Debbie. This concert date is our 3rd time together (1st time was the coffee date). So only in my mind I have a close relationship with either of them.
I am putting out my intention(s) and practice letting go and just enjoying what life brings to me in the moment.
Mark
We're fools whether we dance or not, so we might as well dance. ~Japanese Proverb
Mark,
I don't disagree. From her email (see below), it sounds and feels like she is not interested in doing anything to create a closer relationship/friendship.
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I missed our time together and am glad we got to share such an experience of Cirque Du Soliel together. I could not imagine doing it with anyone else (except for as well).
I hope we can continue to deepen and broaden and lengthen and widthen and .... well you get my drift LOL... our relationship.
I really believe you are a gift in my life and I want to fully enjoy that/you and not hold onto whatever label or role you fear that I have placed on you.
I have decided to let you take the initiative in contacting me (the ball is in your court). I will always love to hear from you, talk with you, be with you.
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Mark,
I very much enjoyed sharing that experience with you and ! Thanks so much, again for inviting me! It was the most extraordinary visual feast! Very inspiring!
Mark -you are a gift in my life as well. I truly value what we have shared and look forward to continuing our friendship. (labels - you say relationship, I say friendship = same thing!)
If putting the ball in my court relieves you of feeling intrusive, I'll take it. You can contact me, though. I'm not sure if you have more meaning behind 'taking the initiative' than just calling. Do you mean anything bigger than just contact? I want you to call and share with me when it moves you to do so, too.
Happy travels, Mark...may epiphanies abound!
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Note: The // symbolizes how CNDG and I mirror each other.
Mark,
I'm glad you had a good time at Cirque de Soleil- totally wish I could go see a show!!!
A nice concert tonight hearing Ladysmith Black Mambazo (from South Africa) with Debbie. What a sweet group. I literally felt the energy tingle in my body with them singing. I really felt their gentle and loving selves as they performed. Their big hearts filled the theater.
I thought it was worth the four hour drive to and back to see them and Debbie. She got the tickets and I got the dinner and drinks.
I got an email from someone off a Match giving me her phone number. She does not think we're partner material but close enough to explore a friendship. I called and left a message.
I got a message off MySpace from M who noticed my "sad" indicator (from my CNDG email) and sent me some email to cheer me up. I am very fortunate to have such a nice new friend.
Sunday I'll be seeing my 60 yr old friend to help her with her Match profile. I forwarded her my co-worker's (54) profile and she is interested in him. She is in shape and looks a bit younger than 60. I'll be curious if she plans to lie about her age. My co-worker already knows about how Debbie lied (stated 56 but really 58). I know it is tough for women as they get older with men wanting younger (like me).
Mark who is still feeling the love from the concert
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