may I vent please?
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| Wed, 05-11-2005 - 2:07pm |
Ok, I feel like I'm at a good place in my life. I am doing so many things that I love and are fulfilling. My kids are coming along well. I'm good at my job and it's good for my graduate work. I'm smart, accomplished, and I am a good friend. I'm responsible, I hold down a full time job and pay my bills and take good care of my family. I am more beautiful than I've ever been, and in better health.
Now the part I hate. I hate men at this moment. Some of them act like they're god's gift even when they're NOT flirting...they just swagger like neanderthal IDIOTS! I'm so sick of them playing with my emotions for their own ego gratification. I can't think of one who has given me anything without a huge payback on my part, and almost all of them gave pretty much nothing. I pitched Grady's number today just so I wouldn't call him and tell him I HATE him and to never EVER think about calling me again.I don't want to give him even that satisfaction. I want him to think I never gave him another thought. If I do see him again, he's going to have some ice to melt and he's going to have to work hard.
It's tempting to wear a nun's habit or a wedding band or dress like a granny and hope none of them ever speak to me again. BUT, I think not. I think I'll just get more and MORE beautiful and fit and be MEAN to ALL of them!!!

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I think that Grady's disappearance has given you a let down. You need a hug.
((((((((HUG)))))))
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well, yeah...it was a let down.
We talked for an hour and a half, He opened up to me (or seemed to) I opened up to him. If that didn't go anywhere I don't want to look at another man again. ICK!
Candi, I apologize in advance for being frank, but I must.
You sound very very bitter and utterly lacking in any logic here. I can't see what Grady did to you to make you climb back on the "men are hateful pigs" bandwagon. I just can't. He flirted. He considered calling. He got your number. He didn't call. Maybe he had a good reason in your opinion, or maybe not. Maybe he just decided he didn't want to call. That was his perogative. You have the same rights.
And I won't agree with the "if you give someone your number, you SHOULD call because it's polite" argument. I can't agree. It's not rude if you decide not to call. It's just life. We're all entitled to change our minds.
In the meantime, you had a great "date" with him, in a way. You spent an hour and a half in intelligent conversation. It energized you. It validated your feelings of being beautiful. It was stimulating. It was FUN. It was good practice, dang it. Why does all of that have to be undone, just because that one man didn't call? Why
well, excuse me for having feelings to get hurt, or for wanting to vent once in awhile, too (which I said it was). I didn't think venting was logical...just release. I've had 4 men walk through here today being idiots, calling me a "chick" telling me they "like my smile, come on smile" and thinking they're just "good old boys"...like I'm supposed to fall at their feet. So I'm irritated and I needed to vent. Other people do that on here, they're ready to kill their ex's or divorce their spouses or something equally as over reacting.
And yes, if you want someone's phone number it does imply calling them, especially when you say you will. It's a crappy way to behave. I know it happens all the time, but that doesn't make it perfectly acceptable.
I said the men I've been with have wanted payback. And pretty much across the board that's true. Even trav, who did some good things for me...I turned him down once and that was that.
I'll just keep my mouth shut from now on. I thought about going in the bathroom and just bawling my eyes out instead of venting. But maybe that would have been a better move. I'm ready to do that now. Thanks for caring. I'm not mad, but I am hurt.
Bawling your eye's out is good. If it were me I'd try and hold out until after work. I was at lunch today and the two girls I work with were talking about one of their sisters who has been waiting 5 years for a marriage proposal that will probably never come and how sad that was. I tried to say it's not sad, if she wants to take the risk and stay with him, then she needs to accept it might not lead to marriage, and if she wants marriage she can leave him and go find someone that wants that too. They see him not marrying her as something he's doing to her, but he's just living his life the way he wants and she's going along with that, her choice. I was starting to say this but I started to get upset about my bf and I certainly didn't want to cry in front of them while eating lunch so I shut up. Then they went on to talking about their own engagements and married lives and I felt like running away. Sometimes things in life happen and it hurts. Let it hurt. Go and have a good cry tonight. I'll do the same.
Thanks hon...I will do just that.
And I'm off this bb, too. If there's not support when I want to vent then I don't really want to be on here.
You take care, ok?
I totally agree, ladies! Sometimes you just need a good cry (or vent) just to let go of some frustrations.
This post hit home with me today, as I felt the need to leave work, go home and bury my head under a pillow and bawl my eyes out too! WHY? Well, dealing with some XH issues. NO! I dont want the A-hole back. But i'm very very sad about the fact that my marriage failed. I have moved on. But that doesnt stop me from needing to grieve on my own sometimes. And if that means having a good hard cry- then so be it! I will feel better afterward, and be able to move past those fleeting feelings of failure.
Vent.... cry... whatever you need to do. YOU ARE ALLOWED to have harsh feelings sometimes-right or wrong. And you are allowed to express those feelings.
Rock on!!!!
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