Miffed, venting, lonely, bummed...
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| Tue, 09-02-2008 - 10:45am |
I can't remember what nick name I gave this guy.. but a bit of history. The guy I met from my single parents group that was so recently separated that we agreed to just be great friends but we couldn't keep our hands off eachother when we'd see one another. lol
Anyway...when we agreed to be friends I told him: I'm fine with friends, but I'll admit that when you finally realize that you're ready to date, and its not me.. my feelings will be hurt. So I see on his myspace "disapointed" I was like awe whats wrong? He said Debbie cancelled on me. I said who is Debbie? He says my girlfriend. I was like umm ok? Actually I said "Wow, umm ok? I knew I'd feel like this... feelings officially hurt"
So then with Medic giving me zero comfort over my break in ordeal, and not even checking up on me.. then I have HC coming out of ghost mode and coming at me with very obvious sexual motives I'm feeling very very sad.
The break in just made me realize how unbelievably alone and lonely I am. I feel like a good cry is near. I mean, I don't feel like I need a man to keep me happy its just that I am just seriously alone here. My friends are so stuck inside their own bubbles, and my family have all moved away... I'm just sad today, very sad.

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RETAIL THEREPY :-)
even if its something small - do something nice for yourself...especially after all your hard work on the house - maybe a mani/pedi or something like that.
JH
This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being thoroughly worn out before you are thrown on the scrap heap; the being a force of Nature instead of a feverish selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy.
JH
I am sorry you are going through such a bad time.
Ok, so my funks do not last long.. I'm much better today. Actually once the girls got home yesterday I snapped ot of it.
POF has been giving me some good prospects latly but I was so bummed the past few days I didn't feel like I could really be myself to talk to these guys. So, talked to the two best prospects last night a bit. I'm having dinner with the Bail Bondsman Thursday night lol. I do have it bad for public service men lol.
And last night a very very long talk with who we will call mohawk man and I tell ya he was just what the doctor ordered.. had me in stitches all night, and a lot in common. He may be a little to out of the box for me.. we'll see he's very funny. I call him mohawk man because he showed me a pic of him and his son when he was like 2.. this beautiful black and white whith his son sucking his thumb, the two of them facing eachother in a loving embrace both sporting mohawks.. I loved it lol. I do love someone that is not so stuffy that they can step outside of the box.. but I am conservative in many ways too so we'll see.
I have to laugh at a man who can appreciate my love for getto slang.. cause ya know, thats how I roll. ;)
I just want to have fun again.. so I'm trying. I've always been the type to dust myself off and get right back out there, so here I am.. doing what I do. (Cause thats how I roll!) lol
(Cause thats how I roll!) lol
Aren't you in Charlotte? Let's go out! Or you can come over this evening with your kids. I could really use a friend myself right now. NOT to mention, your a scorpion, so am I, your birthday is Nov 4th, mine is the 5th!! How much more could we have in commmon????
- cat
edited to add: I also only have bubble friends and no family at all here.
Edited 9/3/2008 11:31 am ET by myprecioustwo
I didn't know you were in Charlotte! I probably can't do anything until not this weekend but next weekend. Tonight is my last free night before I go back to work and I have tons to do.. sorry! But yah that sounds like a good plan.. even if its just getting together w/the kids or what not. I want to get them to Boomerang Bay next weekend too before the weather turns and we lose all of our summer. I miss the lazy river, I was thinking of that today and how I'd just love to be floating down that. Hell thats what I should have done this morning. Instead of dumping Medic I should have just gotten in the car and floated all morning on that lazy river! LOL
I told Medic about the guy with the bad timing and new girlfriend. I said I fear thats going to be you.. I'll call to take you out for a celebration in Feb. and you'll be engaged or something lol.
The fact is that I've had three men since May that fish hooked me, and I really started to fall for. I think each of them crushed my spirit a little. I'll recover, I always do.. part of me wonders if I need to stop for a while so I don't get perma damage here, but I hate the idea of sitting at home... I want to get out and meet people, meet THE guy ya know?
JH
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