MM reveals his romantic side....
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| Sun, 11-02-2008 - 11:30pm |
what a difference a couple days can make... MM has a romantic side afterall... and it's hitting me right where it's gonna hurt.... aye ya... But it's my choice. I know letting someone in is a risk that i will be hurt later.. And if that happens, i will choose to look at the positive... and say i took a risk. I am living.
I'm still very cautious where MM is concerned but all this constant communication means he's always on my mind these days.... he emails me all the time... texts me when he's not at his computer... even phones me too.
remember i said he's out of town, and i went to the football game to play. after the game, there was a fire to stay warm and roast marshmallows... MM called me and i told him all about it... later he emailed me saying he felt like he missed out... i said "you didn't miss much... there will always be more jokes and stories" thinkng he meant the hanging out with good peeps. But he said "hanging with you next to a nice warm fire. i'll be the judge of that..." awwwww... what a romantic thought, don't ya think. i will be having sweet dreams tonight for sure.
btw, we are meeting tomorrow for happy hour \ dinner... and he invited me back to his place after work. i said, heroes doesn't come on this week... and he said, that just means you don't have an excuse. you'll just have to come over because you want to...
i hope these are all good signs that things are moving forward....

Those are and I think you are smart and wise for being cautious. Good luck. I want things to work for you.
Laurie
the song for today was "Broken" by Lifehouse. An excellent song.. could be about a broken heart but really it's about Jesus.
For example:
A broken heart that is still breathing... In the pain there is healing... In your name I find meaning.
I like the band LifeHouse... and this song brings peace to me... I felt a little scared today because of the feelings i'm developing for MM now.... BUT and this is a good "But", when i saw him tonight, i felt that he has feelings for me too. Something is different.. he doesn't seem to be holding back. The way he looks at me, the way he hugs me and kisses me too... there's something different. And unlike guys in the past, i feel like i trust him. And you all know how huge that is for me....
The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I will be okay. And while i'm not saying i expect the pain, i'm saying i know it all too well... and i have survived before... i think because sometimes, we talk about the pain as if it represents some kind of failure... And i always say it represents victory. Sure it hurts, but it is proof we are living and letting people in.... After dinner, and after