Mr.RCMP is back...
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| Tue, 05-20-2008 - 5:01pm |
sorta LOL I have been so busy and love coming on here to read updates but rarely find time to do one of my own. My 3 kiddos are keeping me hopping that's for sure!!!
So last time I updated I think I mentioned (after next'ing Mr.RCMP, that I'd started dating Mr.Postman and Mr.Mechanic) so anyway, not dating Mr.Postman anymore, he really is SO sweet and generous and has all these pluses going for him, unfortunatley the chemistry just wasn't there for me and I really did try. He was wonderful in all other aspects, but my heart did diddly squat when I thought about him. We do have a really great time hanging out etc. OK, so still dating Mr.Mechanic. He lives about an hour+ away, but we get together most weekends for a date. Very nice guy, there *is* some chemistry there, but I'm still not "sold" on it if you know what I mean.
OK, so in the midst of this, a few weeks ago Mr.RCMP contacts me, very neutral, we chit chat, have a nice catch up conversation, (we didn't end on horrible terms, I just backed off completely because I felt he wasn't putting the effort in I wanted and expected and job or no job, I felt he could have done better. Also I was questioning some things and just felt it best to end it because I was basically closing myself off to other daters for him. I had been exclusive) so enter Mr.RCMP again. I can say I was shocked. It used to be like pulling teeth getting him to initiate anything first, make the first move etc so for him to out of the blue contact me was a surprise. But we had a nice chat. He felt around if I was dating and I said yes I was back int he dating scene and enjoying it. He said he was being stationed again and able to come home more often (this was our #1 problem, we didn't get to see each other enough, and contact was limited when he was out in the boonies) and he asked if he could take me to dinner some time. I said sure. The he launched into this huge confession about regretting putting things before me, and how I'm everything he's been looking for and he wished he hadn't screwed it up etc etc and bottom line: would I consider taking him back. I told him right now, I was dating. Not in a relationship with anyone, but at the same time I wasn't going to put a halt to everything again like I had done once when we became exclusive. I will admit, I did miss the guy. We were really a nice match, distance, his job and such really made things difficult) but I'm not going to seclude myself and cut myself off again, I would go bonkers being home night after night after night waiting for a date with him lmao so I said I was going to continue dating, and would love to go out with him again and catch up. And we'll go from there.
So.... that's where I'm at. I really gotta say, I'm still SO SO HUGELY attracted to him and missed a lot of things about him. What it really comes down to is, to be commited to this guy, it means sacrafices. Because his job intereferes a LOT. But he has promised to be better than ever about staying in contact, not letting days and days go by without a phone call or email ro something and just being more attentive. It was my biggest complaint. I would wonder why I hadn't heard from him. So he's trying to step up and I'm letting him. Am I being naive? I mean sure, a leopard may never change his spots, I just feel like maybe giving him a second chance isn't a bad idea. But of course it did somewhat throw dating Mr. Mechanic in a little upheaval for me. I've been honest. He knows he's not the only man I'm dating. It's JUST dating too. some cuddles, kisses goodnight etc. but nothing else.
OK. Lay it on me :)

Hmmm... I don't think there's anything to lay on you.