Need a hug or just a damn break!

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Registered: 09-26-2005
Need a hug or just a damn break!
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Thu, 05-31-2007 - 4:51pm

First of all let me say that reading all your dating stories always gives me hope.
However, they make me sad as well. You lucky ladies get dates, all I ever get is ghosted on, I don't ever get dates! In 2 months I've had about a dozen of what seemed like promising men email me on POF, but it always follows the same pattern they email me a few times, we exchange numbers and poof, they are gone!
Right now I'm emailing with what seems like another promising guy, we exchanged numbers last night, but I just feel like he'll be another ghoster. I can't even sum up enthusiasum any more. I've taken a thousand and one breaks from it, but I always have to go back because I have my kid 24/7 , have no social life, and that's the only way I'll ever meet anybody.

Another serious thing that is happening in my life, My job is being eliminated on 07/01/07. I've never been unemployed in my life! I've been job hunting almost 8 months and I can't get a break there either. As the time comes closer, I'm starting to have nightmares about what will happen to us if I can't get another job. My part time modeling has lately been drying up as well, as they are using(shocker) younger girls, so the work is far and few between. It would kill me to loose everything that I worked so hard for, I'm basically alone in this world, so I have absolutely no one I can count on. It's not like I can move in with my parents or anything like that, so if I loose it all, I go straight into a homeless shelter. I already told my XH that like it or not, he will have to take his dd if I end up losing my place.

I fight so hard to stay positive, to stay focused, but lately it just been so damned hard.
My faith is what's holding me up right now. I signed up to become a volunteer with a really good charity, so that I won't go out of my mind staying home. It just really sucks, no vacation, no nothing to look forward to.

Thanks for letting me vent. Please just send positive thought my way, something's gotta give.

The T Girl

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Registered: 09-26-2005
Fri, 06-01-2007 - 2:20pm
Mark, as a former cleaning lady I can relate. You really have inspired me to get off my pity party mode and get my creative juices flowing. I'm going to write out a good game plan for myself, I'm going to think like back when I was a strugling student, I always had money making ideas flowing. Thanks for the inspiration.
The T Girl

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