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| Mon, 07-05-2004 - 12:05pm |
That is not a good turn in the relationship and I know that. I am not doing it blindly. I am frustrated to the point of no return. Yes - I think ther may be no return. I am trying to hold out. Because I love him. But will he get past this? Is this a situation or a personality flaw? And if it is a personality flaw is it one that I can live with in most situations except for this one. And then, in spite of the fact that I truly believe he does love us - does he?
I have a family reunion on the 31st that he is going to with me. He has a recital again this month that he wants me to attend (because of course his family won't be there) and next month is another race and I have made it ver clear that I want to go. But I am beginning to think that even if I did and he introduced me to his dad it wouldn't be enough. I know it will be "here is my girlfirend" real casual. I don't think this is going to work. I need something bigger from him. I wish he could give it but I don't know how to even tell him that and not have him feel like I am pushing. I am a pushy person I know.
I am sure that a good part of this is my lack of anything secure and stable in my life. I really need that and I know that if he decides to give it it will be somethign I can count on. But he is still deciding. How long is too long. I think this is a tad ridiculous. I am not in a hurry to give up something that I DO trust. But I feel I can't trust it forever. Because he hasn't given me forever yet.
This is too hard :(
Thanks for listening to yet another vent. I have to get to a point where it is too much or he changes and I am not there yet - please bear with me.
Laura

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Anyway, the scenario you described reminded me of the episode from last night. The woman is having marital problems and is convinced it's all her mother's fault. She blames it all on her mother. Her mother does appear to be the type of woman who just lays it all out on the line without regard to anyone’s feelings, but it turns out the true root of her problem lays elsewhere. She’s in love with her best friend…figures it out, but STILL blames mom.
Hey, sorry, I just got back from a quick business trip and wasn't able to get online in the interim...
How's it going?
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