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| Thu, 07-14-2005 - 3:24pm |
Everyone just giving you a little update on what's going on in my life. I have had a very hectic few days. The man that was in my life is no longer....i let him go! He is verbally abusive, and just terrible. He just recently got kicked out of his fathers' home, didn't have a job until last week, no car, and living at my house with my daughter and me. He eats up all of the food, doesn't help out and expects me to do everything as he wants it done. Not to mention i'm his taxi, and he doesn't even say thank you for anything. So starting off yesterday evening, after i kicked him out a couple of days ago we tried to work on things. So he comes over the day before yesterday, and we start wrestling (note he's a Karate National Champion). Well he's kind of rough with me, and i tell him to stop and he doesn't. Pretty soon, he playfully grabs my arms, and i try to knee him. So he storms out, and walks to the gas station down the street. He calls me from there, and asks if i can give him a ride. So i go and do this. Anyway, the next morning he calls me, and wants to see if we are still together, so i go and pick him up. He comes over here and we talk, then i take him to work at 8:45. So he tells me that he'll be getting dropped off at his friends' house that he's staying at. Well at 12:45 the phone rings, and he wants to know if i want him to come over and stay the night. So I go and pick him up, waking my daughter up mind you. So we come back, and i tell him that someone had been following us on the way to pick him up. He said well i don't know who it could have been, and that we are ok so it doesn't matter. He didn't even bother to ask me if we were ok, until i brought it up to him. Then this morning i tried to wake him up nice. Then we started talking about astronomy, and he always asks like he knows more than anyone. Trying to out do me in it. So then he wants to have sex, and i have to say it was the worst sex i've ever had in my life!!!!!! So unfulfilling!!! Mind you this is the man who claims he's only loved two women Me, and his first love! He never wants to please me sexually, only himself. And on top of that, he always wants me to give him head (excuse me) before we do anything else. And the reason this is, is because the women he's slept with do this for him with no problems and i won't. So afterwards he see's i'm upset, and asks me what's the matter. However i can tell that he really doesn't care. So then he says can you take me back to the place i was staying. And starts making phone calls on MY phone. So then i get on the phone to call my mother, and i don't mention her. So he comes upstairs to see who i'm talking to. So i get off the phone, and he starts asking me who it was. I tell him none of his business. He always thinks it's another man. So i drop him off, and that was that. This was Today. I'm done. All i need right now is some good advice from some good people. This relationship with this man is so toxic, it's not even funny. I need prayers from any place i can get it from. In the past few weeks, i have been getting headaches, lost 14 pounds, not eating, and just feeling run down. This isn't how life is suppose to be. Please Help!
Yasmari

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