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No more men for me...
| Fri, 05-09-2008 - 11:52am |
for a long time. Things are OK with MCDAD, but I am just going to stop dating for a while......Even hobbling around on crutches I've been asked out..which makes me feel good. But, I'm just not happy and I deserve to be happy. Right now I'm just sad...Thanks for all the wonderful advice and or opinions you all have given me......
~~Tiny
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But, I'm just not happy and I deserve to be happy
You are exactly right on that one--if things aren't feeling fabulous then there is no reason to go forward!
April
The thing is that I'm happy with the way things were/are progressing with MCDAD. He's completely stepped up to the plate with his actions. I like the way I feel when we are together. We talk, play, relax, laugh, spar(verbally), joke. I'm just not happy with me. I keep doubting myself. I question his motives(not outloud, but to myself)
I went 24 yrs with my ex who was attentive, loving and respectful...just to find out it was a LIE..He had started being unfaithful from almost day one. And it only took 22 yrs for me to see it!! We have gotten past infidelity, hurt, lies, etc. and are actually good friends now. I know part of the reason for my unhappiness is that I'm afraid to trust..especially a man. So, I made the decision to step back and re-evaluate myself. Not relationships but ME. I know that I'm starting to isolate myself from MCDAD, my kids, everything. I'm drinking more, too. alone....I do go to therapy and when I'm there I work on trust but..I feel like I'm failing miserably.
I don't trust my judgement. and rather than be hurt and feel like I've failed again. I need to check myself.
~~Tiny
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~Karen˙·٠•●♥Ƹ̵̡Ӝ
Wow... good for you to notice what is going on with you and deciding to do something about it.
i feel ya... sometimes we have to find a CENTER... and i've learned that men are not the center... they can drive me crazy, but my world does not revolve around them....
I pray you will find your center, Tiny! Life gets better from the inside out... not the outside in...
Hugs and prayers,
Loonybunny
ps. for me, my center is Jesus....
I know what you mean about trust and not being happy with yourself. I'm there right now too and using alcohol to make it "better". We don't have to go through this alone though. This board and our friends here are a great support and we have our kids, our shining stars.
I really don't have any advice or magic words, only friendship. Hang in there and keep us posted on how you're doing.
Cat
" I'm just not happy and I deserve to be happy" - ABSOLUTELY!
(((Tiny)))
I think that taking a break will do wonders for you- and staying away from McDad will help.