Not a Halloween party, just a pity party

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Not a Halloween party, just a pity party
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Fri, 10-31-2008 - 9:48am

I'm throwing myself a pity party today. Once again, I'm the designated chauffeur to a bunch of Teenagers tonight as all the parents are going to be at different Halloween parties. Again, I'm the one that is going to be home alone, while all my other friends wont' go out and they won't do anything fun this evening. Either because they will work tomorrow morning or becuase they have other plans or just won't go out. Drives me INSANE.
I PROBABLY could find a party to go to by myself, but then I keep thinking the cops will be out, the people are all going to be drunk crazy and I don't want to dress up. I KNOW, I sound like a total pooper.

I don't attend meetups anymore, because I don't want to run into anyone that I knew. I know that sounds stupid, but I kind of realized they weren't really my friends, but only mere aquaintances during a time when I needed friends.

My mom said, I should go on a date and I told her the LAST thing I want to do right now is date. LOL. Dating a guy, just to get out of the house seems really stupid, because it adds that un-needed stress in my life, when I'm actually happy the way things without a man in my life to cause drama. That last drama with RF was enough for me to keep me at bay from meeting anyone else. The men, just always seem to have SUCH issues. UGH.

This whole working from home, isn't all it's cut out to be. I'm just finding myself recluse more and more. Totally sucks.

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Registered: 09-28-2008
Sat, 11-01-2008 - 4:59pm
Duck Fan had to spend the night helping a friend so I was alone too. I read my book and went to bed early. Duck Fan is coming to get me tonight.
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