OMG i feel like a snoop but now what??
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| Wed, 10-01-2008 - 1:08am |
So.... remember how i said i found MM's myspace page... well, i don't really check it out often or nothing but tonight for some reason i was curious ... and this is what i find. An entire blog in the category of romance and relationships... written today around 2... the title being something i said on Sunday.. "Touchee". So i read it, but don't know if i wasn't suppose to or what ... it was really deep. Basically he heard a song on the radio that resembles how he's feeling
How hard will it be if she is nice to me?
How bad will it get if I let her get to know me?
Should she see the willing dog or should i be a jungle cat?
And most of all my god how does she make her eyes do that?
Um.... is he talking about me? Or maybe i'm just vain and think the song is about me....lol.... He's basically talking about some struggle about been there done that in relationships and doesn't know if he wants to open up again... doesn't know if he wants to "jump in"... wow, if he is talking about me, i didn't know he felt that way...
He also says this Balance my principles with what I feel...Balancing letting a girl know without coming off as a creep...Balancing "Not that into you" with respect of boundaries...
wow, i guess the stuff we talked about all weekend has got him thinking. even if he only sees me as

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You aren't snooping. Blogs are totally public. People want their blogs to be read, that is why they put them on the web instead of a notebook hidden under the bed...like I do!
I never understand why people put such personal feelings on blogs. I am not sure who they are intending to have read them. If it is meant for you, I would think it odd that, as an adult, he doesn't have a better way to communicate. I mean, if he can't do it face to face, but CAN tell 10,000 strangers, how would he deal if something really important came up?
okay so not a snoop but a stalker? lol... I had mentioned myspace on monday night cuz i told him about my babysitter search. The new babysitter said she looked me up on myspace to see if i was a normal person or what. Mine is set to private, though... so all you can see in the header, age, location.. but not all the personal stuff... the new babysitter said i looked like a normal and real person so then she called me.
after thinking about finding his blog and what it said. Yes, he was talking about me. maybe not intended for me specifically to read but I'm the girl he's been seeing .. the song was "Girl Inside My Head".... btw.
now it kinda explains the lack of chemistry..... he's holding back as he's figuring out if \ when he wants to jump back in this stuff called dating \ relationships. and i'm thinking being his friend at this point is a good thing because friendship is drama free....
i find the blog incredibly romantic though.... i just hope he'll take a chance and say those things to me...
Oh wow Loony!
If a new guy I was into had a blog you BET I would read it! Its public info! And if he intended for you not to see it he would keep it private.
Some people are better at writing their feelings in order to understand them than they are saying them face to face. In the blog what I read in that is that yea, he has feelings for you but he is torn. Doesnt want to get hurt. And also does not want to come off as a creep and scare you. Totally normal "guy" fears I think.
When do you see him again?
Perhaps friday... cuz there's the weekly friday meetup... but meetups are not intimate. We won't be alone and the chance that it's just awkward,ya know... so i'm thinking of biting the bullet and suggesting that we get a drink
Hey, I just had a thought Loony.
OK this would take big Kahoonahs...but I bet it would open up a whole new door between you two. What if you said to him (either in person or even via email) something like "MM, I think you're great. I've really enjoyed
interesting idea... however, i do want to know what "this" is... LOL... i'm not one for limbo and was
i sent the thank you note...
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