A peaceful saturday morning
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| Sat, 10-06-2007 - 5:20am |
I woke up at 4 am today and dont feel sleepy a bit anymore and just feel happy and peaceful .. may be the weather is good. I felt good about waking up alone and being single and everything I have.. One of those days I just thought Thank God ..I am who I am and I am happy for all these that I have.. and all I see is my tiny studio, books and a fan turning at slow speed. I have no plans for the day except to cook and clean my apartment. A girlfriend has invited me to go meet her, But I just feel I need to arrange my things here and some pending chores need to be done.
My BF is working hard to meet a deadline next week so I dont want to bother him much. But last night we watched a movie cuddled took the take home chinese food cuddled more and I let him go.. He asked me to go sleep at his place although he has to cwork he just wants me around.. I told him I will spend my night here and see him tomorrow eve when he is has finished more work. In one of my last posts I had mentioned I was worried about his ambition ect.. But I decided to let go and not push him for anything and that really works, he is doing things on his own and sometimes I feel that the things he chose not to do are those that wont be good for our future.. even if it means better career for him..like applying for a job in another state. He even made an offer for a house.. which is huge. So I realised that the key is just to be assertive and minimise the number of times I remind him. But I help him in a way I cook lunch for him if he is too busy. When I had my deadlines he would do things like that for me too..I dont even have to ask him.
So I am not sure if my peaceful morning results from having had a good night ?

Good morning!!
I am tired - trying to eat and wake up before going swimming with a group here in my town. We swim hard for an hour and a half. I had a hard run last night - 30 minutes easy, 40 minutes as fast as I could go and then 10 minutes easy. Not to mention there were 10 miles in my legs from two days before!
Today is my heavy duty workout day - swim, run, bike.
DS comes back this evening so we will go to dinner.
I hope you have a good hike. Sounds like you are very happy and that is a good thing!! Keep us posted - I hope your bf gets a lot done so he has more time with you.
There is a guy from match sending epic emails. He is supposed to call today. I will keep you guys posted.
Today I feel at peace as well.
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