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|Wed, 03-26-2003 - 11:13am|
Hi, My name is Kelsey and I am 19 and have a 15 week old daughter Hadlie.. Im in a tough situation with her dad. well call him "J". and i dont know what to do. We Met last February... yes i know.. i already have a kid with him... some people may have judgements. but i dont care. cuz i have the most precious daughter now.. but.. i dont know whether i really should stick around for him to grow up and be more mature or go out and see what else is there.. He's verbally/emotionally abusive, very manipulative, plays mind games, controls me, stalks, harasses, etc.. you may think im crazy for even still being around him or talking to him... but yet..ive tried for sooo long to get away from him.. but he will come back crying and making me feel guilty.. he will try to get to me any way he can. hes tried to get to me through my mom, dad, sis and my dead grandpa.. now come on.. how low can he go.. i do have feelings for J but i dont know if i want my whole life like that.. matter of fact i know i dont.. but its hard to get away. im so lonely. i still live at home with my family but im home alone during the day by myself with Hadlie and then when someone comes home i go to work. so its like. i dont even have a life.. i wish i could be a SAHM... but dont know how in the world i could do that.. my head is just so jumbled. i want to do the best for hadlie... never want to put her in a tough situation...i want to move on. but its like hes the only one there right now. so i stick with it. Ha as you can tell i can sit here and just type away.. But im not sure if this is where i belong or if i to go to some other board.... hope to meet some of yall..