Right time, the right place...

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Right time, the right place...
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Tue, 04-17-2007 - 9:26am

right body, the right face, timber I'm falling in love. It started slow, it's coming fast, I got a feeling it's gonna last, timber I'm falling in love. You're so pretty, look so sweet, your love's sweepin' me off of my feet, you're the only one I'm dreamin of, I can't believe that I'm falling in love....

Wow. So, our trip was great. The kids had a blast, I got tan (yay!!) and we just enjoyed ourselves. The weather was great, especially when we heard that everyone back home was getting inches and inches of snow! Seemed a little surreal- we were swimming, it was 90, and at home they were shoveling!

We did a bunch of stuff, I'm totally exhausted- Disney for 6 days with two little kids (I will never do that again!) wore me out! We're all taking an extra day off today to regroup, recoup, and get some basic stuff done here.

ok, so yadda yadda yadda, trip good, safe travel, home now.

Here's the scary, exciting, sparkly, troublesome, happy update.

I am now sure I'm falling for funnyguy. I've had lots of experiences as a single mom where I'd have this vague sense of dissatisfaction when doing some type of "family" thing. Like we'd be at an amusement park and I'd wish we were a foursome instead of a twosome. Or we'd be at dinner, and I'd wish we were requesting a table for four instead of three. But the fourth person was always a vague, nameless, faceless man. Even when I was dating someone, he wasn't necessarily the person I wished was there. Until funnyguy.

I did have fun on our trip, but I missed him. Not the idea of him, but him specifically. There were definite moments when I wished he was there- the kids would get antsy waiting in line, and I'd think how he'd entertain us and make us all laugh.

At first, this whole thing with him scared me- in a good way. I was worried that I'd become attached, that the kids would, and then he'd leave, as men are wont to do when I like them. Now, however, I'm too happy being with him to worry about when he leaves. The fact is, I don't think he will.

He met my family on Easter, and that went well. I'm probably meeting his this weekend, which makes me nervous, but not too nervous. He's met my friends, we're planning for me to meet his. He's invited me on a trip to FL in August for his cousin's wedding, and I'm thinking I'd really like to go.

It is so easy to be with this man. I don't have to wonder or worry or think about any of it. It just feels right. Last night he came over, and we simply cuddled and talked and even though he stayed the night, we didn't feel the need to have sex. It was probably one of the best nights of my life- and we didn't even do anything. He got my woodstove going while I threw in a load of laundry, and for me to be bale to let him do that was simply amazing for me. I've never been the type to relinquish control in any way over my life.

I know that it's probably too soon to really know if I actually love him, but I'm definitely falling for him. From all accounts, he feels the same way, though neither of us is feeling pressured to say anything to the other about it. I'm enjoying this feeling, and also enjoying knowing there's no pressure with him. I don't have to be someone I'm not, and I don't have to wonder if he's just behaving the way he thinks I want him to.

We're friends, we're lovers, and at some point in the future, I can see us being so much more than that to each other. I'm letting him in and accepting his help without losing myself or my own independence. He's sharing his life with me without giving up his own interests, and we do enjoy each other so much.

This is what a good relationship feels like, and I'm so happy I can recognize it, appreciate it, and value it for what it is.

Moody, settled and sparkly, happy and hopeful


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Tue, 04-17-2007 - 5:58pm
Hey Moody, welcome back!
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Wed, 04-18-2007 - 8:22am

I am bummed that we didn't meet too, but all in all, it was a good trip. Sunday was the only "bad" weather day we had, and since it snowed here 14 inches on Sunday, I really can't complain about a little rain, wind, and 75 degrees!

We ended up just hanging out, then going shopping, which was fun.

For all the rest of you, thanks for the happy wishes!

One of funnyguy's family friends died while we were gone, so last night I ended up going with him to the calling hours, and met his parents before that. I was extremely nervous- what a way to meet someone's parents! I also met his brother and sister in law, so now we've met each other's entire immediate families.

Aside from the sad circumstances, the meeting went well, and it was obviously important to funnyguy that I go with him. That makes me feel... well, nice, since it's been a long time since I was included in someone's life without feeling "whoooooaaaaaaa, buddy, slow down!" I don't feel that with funnyguy.

We have talked some casually about future plans- the trip in August, a day trip to an amusement park in the summer, just little things, but we haven't had a "where is this going" talk, and I'm glad. There's no pressure with him, yet I simply know he feels it's right, too.

So, we're enjoying this, and each other, and it's all good.

Moody, getting ready to go back to work


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