Saturday Night

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Saturday Night
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Sun, 06-03-2007 - 11:01pm

It was supposed to be a great night. But Shane had to ruin it. He came over to watch Emi because it's not as if he could buy her a little bed or even set up a pallet that she could sleep on at HIS place...

Anyway, we got into it on his way over (don't even recall what it was about now) and anyway, he walked in the house and I came out of my bedroom (my friend was in there too getting ready) and he glared at me and told me not to start with him "aren't you leaving yet???" I told him it was MY house now and he had no right to tell me to leave. Anyhow, I was trying to talk civilly to him but he was in the mood to be an a$$ so be it. He made sure to comment that my tattoos were showing. Okay? I have 2 that were visible and I was wearing a cute sleeveless white top, like a babydoll top with jeans and heels. My hair was curled and I looked nice. He never seemed to be opposed to the tatts when he met me. Seems strange that he waits til now to tell me I look like "trash". Oh yes, trash. He said that.

Well, my friend and I leave and a while later I get a text from him apologizing for that comment and saying he doesn't want to fight with me and he just resents me when he feels I am trying to start something. My friend says it's a game he's playing just to keep me around and playing along. I'm sure it is. Head games...I hate them. I told him in the house I was sick of waiting on him to decide and I was ready to file for divorce if he was not gonna pull his head out of his a$$ long enough to figure out what he wants. I've given him enough time and time was UP!

So my friend and I get to the club so we could go dance and not five minutes later a nice looking gentleman in starched Wrangler jeans, a nice button up shirt and cowboy hat approached me. I turned and smiled and said "Hi!" He introduced himself, shook my hand, and asked me to dance. I absolutely accepted. We talked and he was very sweet, but I am not there looking for companionship. He stayed around a bit but I think he realized I was there just to dance and not to meet anyone. But he was sweet and if I had been ready, I'd have snatched him up. Damned timing! Another few guys came by and one asked my friend to dance and she gladly accepted too. Hey, we were getting lots of attention and it sure made me feel good that someone looked at me like I was desirable.

Upon leaving, two of the guys we met wanted to go grab some food after, but we did decline the offer to go to their house or for them to come to ours with food. We told them it was okay to meet us at a place and eat but that was it. They went to the wrong location and as we were finishing, they showed up at the one where we were sitting. They saw we were done so they went on back home and wanted us to come but I didn't think that was right. Shane then calls me wanting to know where I was. I asked him why and he said he was waiting on me to get back so he could go home. I told him I was on my way and to hold his horses that I went to get a bite with friends after. He had also pissed me off by conveniently forgetting he had to watch Emi this afternoon so I could go do a BeautiControl demo. I had to take her with me and luckily my dad could watch her. He forgot since it was golf. Simple.

My friend now feels like he's sleeping around and tried to encourage me to call those guys over and have a one nighter with them so I could get back at Shane. I had been drinking but even then I could decipher between right and wrong and how would I feel about myself if I had done that? Plus I don't know what Shane is doing. He said he'd call today but Sunday seems to be "ignore the family day" for him. He never calls on Sunday. Never shows. Leads me to believe he MIGHT have a twit on the side to which I say, he better not because Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. I will make sure he suffers a lot of pain if he is doing anything remotely like that.

But I will not stoop to his level. I just know this...I need a divorce and now. I want this to be over. I know that he expects ME to change but will never change himself. He has to agree to be different in order for this to be a working marriage and it can't be because he's too stuck in his arrogance to know how badly he makes me feel. I don't want to be with a man who thinks I look like trash after accepting what he no longer approves of for so long. No one wants to be told they look like trash. That is just insulting and mean. And I'm done.

~Mel~

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Registered: 10-07-2005
In reply to: lissa91
Thu, 06-07-2007 - 10:05am

Mel,


I think moving in with your friend would be an awesome move to do!


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