Slowly but Surely...

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Registered: 04-09-2003
Slowly but Surely...
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Wed, 02-15-2006 - 2:51pm

Well...I'm slowly but surely trying to weed "crush" out of my thoughts and life. Usually when I'm in town or something driving from one point to the other, I find myself looking to see if I run in to him. I've been doing just the opposite of that now, and I'm running into him ALL of the time. I ran into him twice yesterday, but didn't wave or even act like I saw him, I just kept on going. To be honest, this is really hard for me. I don't know if I'm just doing this to prove a point to myself, to make him want me, or b/c I'm just still a little embarrassed b/c of my behavior towards him the other night at the bar. Who knows...

On an up note I guess...I met a guy the other night. My friend knows him, but I don't. Anyway...we ended up talking a little bit and he's been text messaging me. We have a date that's still pending due to the fact that my work and school schedule is so crazy right now. This guy is 25, a CPA, and very cute and really nice. Other than that though, I don't really know much about him, other than the fact that I think it would be nice to go out on a date w/ him when I get a chance. Going out w/ someone new could be the only thing/way to get my mind off of crush and on w/ everything else.

As for crush again, a feel a little hollow. Maybe I'm just realizing - again - that it's not meant to be or ever going to be and I just have to face the music. I guess I'm just trying to heal again after being let down by him. But...it's mostly my fault b/c I did this to myself. I didn't have to go home with him or talk to him or anything with him, but I did...oh well...

Kait

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Registered: 05-25-2004
Thu, 02-16-2006 - 7:30am
You are doing good, Kaitlyn!! It is not easy to realize that a crush doesn't like you. I think the CPA sounds nice - that is most impressive for his age. Keep us posted.
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Registered: 04-08-2003
Thu, 02-16-2006 - 10:44am

Kait Honey,


Of course your feeling hollow!! You have been treated like poop and kicked to the curb. I mean in all honesty, has he called you? Has he stopped to talk to you when he has run into you? Even if it was across the street, did he cross it to say Hi and talk about WHY you seem to be ignoring him? Has he shown ANY sort of descency? I think not! Therefore, ask yourself? Is he worth being depressed about and putting so much thought of WHAT you did or didn't do with him? NO! OOOOOOOOOOOKKKKKKKKKKKKK, so you got drunk and had a fling with him. He obviously took advantage of that and your feelings by taking you home. Now what? It's done, it's over and darling, we've all done it. At least over 90% of us. Usually because we were lonely. It is a learning process. Some of us have one nighters, some of us have side flings, some of us have friends with benefits; however you want to define what we did, we did it and had no relationship to show for it. Most of us