Sore hearted...bummed out

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Sore hearted...bummed out
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Thu, 10-16-2008 - 8:20pm

Hi there. I'm officially on vacation now after working very hard at my full time job, and find myself having time to feel my sadness about my summer fling not being what I was hoping it could be. I've been talking to a few different nice seeming guys online, but I'm disappointed that my huge crush doesn't communicate with me. I've had someone calling and not leaving messages, and I'm the heartsick dork that hopes it's him because I can't help it. I had the feeling with him when we'd spend time together like when I've been swimming under water for a while, and finally come up for air. He made me feel like I was coming up for air, and he made me feel really really happy. It had the good signs I look for, and apparently I was wrong!! The butterflies, the chemistry, the being really comfortable together. I just want to send a note to his dating profile that either says "thanks for breaking my heart you big stud you", or alternately "you know you won't find anyone as cool as me, so don't even go there!" I am hoping that when I get some rest and down time that I will feel better about losing him, and I'm really hoping that it doesn't just make me think of him more. If it's time he needs to consider it because he has been hurt

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Thu, 10-16-2008 - 8:57pm

Sending him the note won't help anything and will make you seem like the crazy spiteful ex gf... so no note sending.

Have a great time on your vacation- what are you doing with yourself on your time off?

The boy

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Thu, 10-16-2008 - 9:28pm

Hi Alison. Right about the being crazy part. He was really upset the last time I saw him in person, and he goes "You women are ALL CRAZY. You are crazy, but in a good way!" I can only assume that his caveman like behavior has caused some game playing from women less mature than I (ha!). I'm getting pay back for being indifferent to guys that really like me, but I'm just not interested in. He did this when he was here too where when he contacted me he wanted to see me right away, and would be totally persistent (sometimes it was just not possible) and then when we were together he was really intense about me. Then I wouldn't hear from him except a "have a good day, you're awesome" kind of text for like 5 days, and then the same thing with having to see me.


I have alot of studying to do on my vacation, and also need some serious rest since work has been very stressful. I'm going to Chicago for a few days all on my own, and since I'm a very west coast girl, this is kind of a big deal. It will be fun and different! I like to read and can take some mindless stuff for the long flight there and back.

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Thu, 10-16-2008 - 9:36pm

Then you should practice your flirting techniques while in Chicago :)

Smile and say hello to any good looking man you see- gives you a little boost of confidence when they beam right back!

The boy

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Thu, 10-16-2008 - 9:39pm
I have a great friend in chicago if you want her number, she used to be on this board and has become one of my best friends. About to be a single mom second time around too. Have a great vacation.
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Thu, 10-16-2008 - 9:41pm
Yes, that is a great plan! I plan to let my light shine...I took some big chances and openned myself up to being hurt, and I got hurt, and ultimately, I will be o.k. I'm making serious progress.
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Thu, 10-16-2008 - 9:44pm
Hi precious. Thanks for that generous offer, I'm taking an exam for a national certification I have that needs to be renewed, so will need to really study. I want to squeeze some sight seeing in though if I can.
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Thu, 10-16-2008 - 9:49pm
Do one of the boat tours! They do great tours of the architecture of the city and the city is truly AMAZING! Can't wait to hear what you thought of it!
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Thu, 10-16-2008 - 10:31pm
I love architecture and exposure to culture. One of the things about living in Alaska is that alot of the houses were put up very hastily with the idea that the housing was there for people here for the gold rush initially, and then we have less red tape about how new construction is supposed to conform to codes. The weather here also is very damaging to the buildings. I can't wait to eat some real Thai food, some real italian food. I'm from northern California originally and miss things from living in the lower 48 at times. Not the traffic, pollution, or crowdedness though.
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Fri, 10-17-2008 - 12:05am

yay to you for opening up. sorry that you got hurt... but i personally choose opening up and getting hurt over being closed and bitter for the rest of my life. Kudos to you for taking risks. you will be rewarded in the future. take care and have a good trip to chicago.


Love,


Loonybunny

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Fri, 10-17-2008 - 12:12am
Hi Loonybunny! Thanks. It was kind of a big deal for me to stay open to this guy this summer and trust that he would keep contacting me and wanting to see me, and he did. I kind of ended it with him by texting him that I know that he'll make someone really happy some day because I just didn't know how I felt at that point. I get confused about romantic things so very easily! Small things really frighten me now. Strong romantic feelings frighten me even though I really want someone to love! I take that fling as a sign God has given me that I can love someone again and in time I'll find something that has the potential to last.

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