thinking out loud... encouraging self
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| Mon, 04-23-2007 - 12:16pm |
I wish I could get on the boards more often... alas....
Couldn't resist going out this weekend. My friend, who I always hang out with (who I am now nicknaming Birdie), and I went karaokeing. It was very crowded because of a birthday, but I wasn't on a man hunt. And she injured her arm at work and was wearing a sling. (crazy of her to go out, I know... but it made a conversation piece).
Anyway, I gave Hotty Richard a call.... at about 11:30 pm saturday night since I figured he was on the roadtrip back... He was hyped up on coffee and we talked for about 30 minutes. Then he said call him later to make sure he was still alive... I guess refering to his long drive... But to clarify I asked "later? Do you mean a few days or few hours?" He meant when I got home after a few hours. Cool. I told him that he could call me when he got back to town sometime... trying to tell him that I expect him to call me too... He made an excuse about forgetting to return people's calls. Hmmmm... that's not a good thing. A part of me thinks, that if during the week or when the weekend gets close... IF he's into me, he won't forget to call, right? AND he wouldn't wait for me to call.... He'd just call...
but I'm conflicted. I'll wait it out and see if he calls before the weekend. BUT... I DO want to see him again (at least once more) especially since he didn't kiss me last time... (And I'm in the mood for a make out session if things happen to go that way....) BUT if his attitude is "whatever" than i don't want to waste my time, either.
On a positve note, when he answered the phone he said, "Hello Beautiful". So, he is interested but I hate this stage of the game... ya know what I'm talking about... he could disapear at any moment... things are exciting yet unstable. I don't want to be too aloof, yet I want to give off enough vibe for him to be encouraged. But in the end, i don't have any control and must be true to myself. I'll try to think on the positive fun aspect of dating. And keep the belief that I am a fun, delightful, beautiful person.... if he is or isn't attracted... not my issue... not gonna slow me down... right.
Thanks in advance for the support and advice.
Loonybunny
