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| Mon, 10-03-2005 - 10:25am |
I haven't dated anyone since FOB I've messed around with my ex (the one before FOB) like once a year since then...well we went out this friday and saturday. I mean I hadn't had sex in over a year, and then he called and we went out for lunch, and it happened. I just feel so guilty about it though, like I felt bad about myself, I don't know why. I guess part of me felt like if I had already waited this long I could wait until I met someone I can possibly have a future with. But I haven't met anyone, I'm always busy though, I work go to school, and my son. I always figured that when FOB had visitations with my son that would be my time, to do as I pleased, because until this month he'll start taking him over nights so why do I feel like this??? My ex was someone that I was so inlove with, we were together for almost 2 years, and although my feelings aren't the same, I'm not sure what I feel, I know for sure though that we would never get back together, as he'd rather start a family of his own and not join one (mean, I know), I guess I feel lonely, and I realized that what I miss is having a partner to be around, to support eachother, etc, not necessarily someone to have sex with. UGH, I don't know anymore, don't you guys ever feel like all you are is a mom, like what about the woman part, you know?? I mean I love my son more than anything, I don't even leave him to go out, because I feel like I already leave him to go to work and to go to school, but lately all these feelings are getting more intense.

I agree with Judy, you need to find yourself a reliable babysitter and get out to have a little adult fun once in a while. I know that you feel guilty about leaving your son, so I recommend that you go out once he's in bed.
It really is important to take some time nurturing YOU,it will benefit your son. If momma's happy, then everyone's happy.
Alison
I'm hoping that when I meet the right person I'll just know. I'm actually a hairstylist, and there's a regular client of the salon that I have a crush on. He has a gf though, but you know how you can just tell when you're physically attracted to someone? Well I think he is, plus if we talk he gets all cheesy and red, lol. It's nice hearing someone in the same boat though. How is your situation with FOB? What do you do? Yeah I haven't heard from the ex, but will keep posted. =)