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|Sun, 07-11-2010 - 7:39pm|
I have survived a weekend I was dreading big time!
My fiance, whom I have some trust issues that I am working through becuase of things that took place last year when I was pregnant, went away for the weekend to the beach with a buddy from work. I knew it was coming, and because of how well things have been with us, I was trying to keep my negative thoughts at bay, give him the benefit of the doubt that he is NOT going there to hook up with anyone women, go to strip clubs with his pig of a friend (who cheats on his wife), etc. The first day of the trip, I was ok and we texted/talked multpile times, etc.
Last night, I started to let my sometimes craziness get to me. I started imagining all of the things he COULD be doing that I'd never know about... I even had a nasty text message typed out about how I KNOW he was hanging out with girls... and then I remembered that I chose to be with him in spite of the past, and I have to let it go and let him regain my trust. I deleted the text message and ironically he called a few minutes later saying he missed me and that he was having fun but its definitely a downer not seeing me and Gi all weekend.
So, I could hvae given in to my insecurities and started a pointless war, and I'm glad to say I bit it back and let my man enjoy his time away that he rarely gets :) I trust him that he is not looking for anything except a relaxing time away with a friend. This was really the first time he was away in a situation that he could have done any thing he wanted and Id never know, so I consider it amilestone that we got thru it unscathed!