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| Mon, 10-18-2004 - 12:55pm |
(OK you can all chuckle to yourselves now.....ok.....enough of that LOL)
Although we connect in a lot of ways I think that #1 I shouldn't be with someone so like me. #2 the ways he isn't like me are slightly distasteful. Here are the things that have turned me off. He admitted to be picky and SUPERFICIAL! Now, I may be picky about certain things but I am not superficial. In talking I brought up the "if you really loved your spouse but they were crippled by disease or an accedent what would you do?"
He said he was leave. Undeniably he would bail. WTF? I mean I understand mixed feelings on that but I have NEVER had someone say they would just bail. That to me is NOT what love and ultmately marriage are all about.
Those things and the fact that I don't think his daughter is very well adjusted. She will be 4 in a few weeks but she sounds like she has come serious problems - emotional wise. I don't know if I even want to take the time to REALLY get to know her dad when it seems that exposing her to my daughter might open the door for bad things. I know that it seems that age isn't that influencial but I am not willing to risk the health of my daughter.
Does that make sense? And of course at the root of it. I still love Jack. Nothing is going to convice me otherwise right now on that so don't bother. I think I do need time. I don't mind just chatting with people through email or online to get to know people and not feel isolated but for dating... I don't know. I wouldn't mind hanging out with Tom as friends sometimes. Casual Date. But nothing more than that. What a bummer. More time wasted. OH well. You never know what will happen I guess. But I need to be ready for it too.
So thought I would update ya. I haven't told Tom how I feel yet BTW. I am just going to wait until we hang out again. To email or tell someone on the phone is not my style.
Laura
| Mon, 10-18-2004 - 4:36pm |
