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| Mon, 07-09-2007 - 3:40pm |
Well, I posted my situation here a few weeks ago. A quick update: My mother has practically disowned me. My sister, mother, and I were sitting in my bedroom and I told them my s/o and I were expecting. My mother had her back turned to me and I could see her face. The only thing she said was "where were you doing all of this?" and "I need to talk with ________" No congratulations...no im so happy for you both as I know you both have wanted more children..no nothing. I ended up crying hysterically and she walked out of the bedroom. *sigh* She still currently is NOT talking to me.
My next big step: having to tell my dad. Well, I knew I just couldn't handle possibly getting the same sort of reaction. I honestly couldn't. I have cried so much in the past few days it's hard to even keep my eyes open. I just don't know how someone--my own mother--could be so crude. So dark spirited. So unhappy for me. It makes my heart ache so much and it's almost unbelievable. This is also a woman who says "children are blessings" "God gives to those who he sees fit" What happened to that mentality of hers?
I feel bad that my son has to watch me cry so often. He will ask whats wrong and tells me that "I've already cried two times" I am falling apart. I am a mess. I don't deserve any of this and wonder why it's all happening to me at whats supposed to be such a wonderful time in my life. I've been worried about the baby too. I don't feel movement and I get nervous. I blame myself.
My sister told me to "prepare myself" because my mom is supposed to be telling my s/o and me that we need to get our own place together, this that and the other thing. *I* am the one who has been helping *her* out. She came in on *my* heals regardless that my dad was paying the rent here. *I* pay for everything else. I haven't said anything except that SHE can go when she wants to and we'll (my s/o and I) take over everything.
I told my mother and sister on Friday and my Mom has said probably no more than 10 words to me since. Yesterday when my dad was over, I decided to write him a letter. I left the letter on my dining room table and excused myself to go cry myself to sleep in the bedroom. I haven't heard from him yet but Im not thinking negatively, either.
So that's what's going on on my end of the world. Hopefully things will get better somehow.
Again, sorry for the blochyness. Thanks for reading.

You need to stop worrying so much and DO something here... rather than focus on what OTHERS are doing/ thinking/ seeing, you need to say "who gives a ___________" and just live your life!
I agree with Alison that you should not let others dictate your happiness. At the same time, do you have to be living under their roof? Because as long as you are, you are subject to their opinions and rules.
Hugs, sweetie, things will all get settled in and pretty soon they will come around and be happy for you.
Keep us posted, okay?