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| Tue, 04-26-2005 - 10:08am |
Hi to all,
I just wanted to give an update and share some good news. For some reason I have had a lot of good things and busy things going on here lately and I have such a positive outlook.
This morning DS came to my bed to snuggle before school. We shared my MP3 player and listened to Trick Daddy and Pink Floyd. And we just snuggled and giggled. Of course we had to do a 1000 yard dash to get ready but we pulled it off. I think I want more mornings like this - to enjoy life more and not be so stressed.
Also, I am building a pool. I have been interviewing designers and have felt such a freedom to totally have all say. The bank gave me an increase in my home equity line in 5 minutes so I have the finances. This idea came from DS - he wanted one for his birthday!! But I looked into it and here if you add a pool it increases the value of the house more than what it costs - will be a good investment.
Instead of being sad without someone (not that I am always sad, but there are sad/lonely moments when you are alone) I am now thinking of all the things I want to accomplish before my prince comes along. You know, like getting your teeth fixed, redoing my closet, the pool, stuff like that - I can do it and not have to "get permission" so to speak.
I have been going out a lot with my 20 something babysitters. We all get a lot of attention in the bars. And we have been talking to interesting people of all ages. So this is fun - I have even bought a few nice fun outfits.
And my business has all of a sudden gotten busy. Went through a few scary/slow months and now it is crazy.
Finally, I am going to St. Croix this weekend for my half ironman. Wish me well - it is hot there and a long course: 1.25 mile swim, 56 mile bike, 13 mile run. DS is staying 2 days with the babysitter here, 2 days with my mom (I am letting him play hooky from school to have an extra day with grandma) and 2 days with his dad.
The garage door opener failed. Instead of being stressed, I climbed up on a ladder to unplug it until I return. Life is too short to be stressed.
I guess this is all good stuff. If I have internet access in St. Croix I will write otherwise I will give you all a break until I return next week.
Cheers and hugs to all. Be good while I am gone - don't do anything I wouldn't do!! LOL!!

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Okay - here is a sneak preview until I get all of the ones from the trip --
I am on the left. We are waving to our families back home - we were in front of a web cam - like how cool is that - my ds could see me while he was talking to me.
Edited 5/8/2005 8:57 pm ET ET by west1745
Judy,
You look beautiful and free and happy. I'm glad you had a good time. I wish we'd hear how Cat's vacation went/is. I don't remember when she said it was, does anyone else?
Amy
Thank you, Amy. Hopefully I will get the pix back today so I can type the race story.
I was thinking about Cat, too. I am betting she has been on vacation these past weeks. It is sure quiet without her. I am dying to hear how the conversation with her ex goes. She is in such a good state now I know good things will come to her.
How are you doing?
Thank you, Becky!! The weather in St. Croix was heaven - although a little hot at times when you are riding and running. The water was clear and beautiful. I am dying to go there again next year - I told my running coach that this morning.
You are pregnant on Mother's day - there couldn't be anything more beautiful and I would trade places with you in a heartbeat!! I don't know why I have such a yearning for that but I do!!
Although I don't know if you would like what races I have you signed up for LOL!!
Thank you for asking about me, Judy. I'm really, really stressed. Next week I'm taking my comprehensive exams for my speech-language pathology degree. That is heavy on my mind. I'm also so eager to get my own place, but this brings its own worries of finding something I can afford, etc. My kids and I live with my parents now and my brother lives here too. He makes this an uncomfortable, unpredictable, and sometimes downright unsafe place to live. I know I'm being so short with the kids lately and I feel terrible about it. I'm trying to calm down but it's hard. I just feel so overstressed.
On the brighter side, once my comps are finished I only have to finish up the last of my clinical hour requirements and then (possibly by June) I can start working and looking for a place. My family thinks I'm a fool for wanting to move out. They've told me it's stupid to do anything other than stay another year and save for a house. I can't even comprehend staying longer than I need to. In my mind, there are more important things in life than your list of assets (this kind of thinking seems to run contrary to the family mentality.) As long as I can provide for my children, which I'll be able to do nicely now that I've finished my schooling, then I feel that having a safe place to live where I can truly relax and establish the family life that I want to have with my children will be worth more than the damage done to us if we stay another year.
I guess that will teach you to ask how I'm doing. :)
Amy
In my mind, there are more important things in life than your list of assets
I QUITE agree. It's nice to have assets. It's NICE to save for a house. But your peace of mind (and children's safe environment) is BY FAR the more important factor. Good for you in getting so close!
I hope your tests go well next week. Just try to take care of yourself, and let the little things roll w/regards to the kids. I know how easy it is to get snitty with them. But it only exhausts YOU and them both in the end. hugs.
Thanks for the update. You poor thing!! That sounds like major stress!! It is great that you are nearing the end to take the exams but oh so stressful to be in the middle of that I am sure.
That must be hard living with your parents and brother. I would not like that, either.
I would also want to move out right away. They do so much now with creative mortgages and low interest rates that there is probably hope sooner than you think. Take good care of you and keep us posted!!
We will have to have a cyber celebration when you get that great job!!
Thank you for the show of support ladies. You are so right, Becky, about how draining it is on the mother to be snitty with the kids. It just hurts all of us. I have been making a conscious effort to stop and take a deep breath when I'm getting edgy and to consider things in perspective. When I get like that I'm often thinking about all of the stress of the world at the same time and it just doesn't get me anywhere. Trying to focus on the moment helps.
They do offer a lot of options with houses these days, Judy. I'm just going to say my prayers and see what circumstances allow. I'm sure things will turn out alright in the end. Under it all, I'm fundamentally an optimist.
Thanks again,
Amy
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