Update with RG and Medic
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| Tue, 07-29-2008 - 10:19am |
Talks are going well with paramedic. The lucky dog is in San Francisco this week. He gets bonus points for keeping in touch while away. We are going to meet and go to 6 flags next week. Looking forward to that.
Saw RG a few times last week. He wants to continue the friendship. Went to Mystic with him and had a good time. Ended up in a compromising position with him Thursday night. Nothing happened because he put a stop to it. So we talked. His religious beliefs prevent him from a physical relationship with me. Thats ok with me. But this info should have come out a long time ago. So we talked a few times. He still wants exclusive but casual. I tried to explain how that puts me in a weird middle position.
Honestly I think casual and non exclusive is the best way to go.
Friday was hell. I was worn out and teary eyed and emotionally beat to a pulp. Then I went to work to find out they just had a crash. The aircraft was still on its nose with the crash crew out there. We were busy and had to deal with our normal traffic and the crash at the same time. So by the end of the day I was worn out. My job is slowly killing me.
I told RG that I needed a few days without thinking of the mess with him. So he left me alone Sat and Sun. I got DD12 back from camp Sat and spent the evening with her. Then we had a party for her on Sunday. Played WII and saw Dark Knight. It was a good break for me and nice to spend time with just family.
Talked more with Brian last night. He is starting to see why this wears on me so much. I did get some answers from him but I have more questions. So I sent him an email with my concerns and said just think about it for a while and we will talk next time we get together.
Laurie

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"My problem is I am a sucker and have a hard time just saying no. "
Which is exactly why you should stop the communication for a while, date other men and leave him be.
It's not that you have a hard time saying no, it's that you REALLY REALLY REALLY want something to happen with RG, and so you're holding onto false hope. He draws you in because you think and hope that *this* time, he will change his mind... that he will realize what he has in you and make that commitment...
Hugs about your job and stuff happening there. I remember the mixed feelings I had about my ER job. A dream job and I loved it. But yet when I left it (to become a SAHM)- I was heartbroken and yet relieved at the same time. I didn't want to give it up and loved the excitement... but yet I knew the stress was eating away at me at the same time. (((((((((hugs))))))))
I agree with the others about RG- if he isn't able to give you a full relationship (and I'm not talking about just sex)- then it's best to leave him be. You really can't do "just friends" and keep things casual if one or the other is actually wanting more.
~shrimpy
It's never too late to live happily ever after, and always be grateful for those who make our souls blossom.
~shrimpy
"A man who wants something will find a way; a man who doesn't will find an excuse." ~Stephen Dolley Jr.
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