very discouraged after break-up
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| Thu, 10-14-2004 - 11:25am |
I left him, but really he left me. He didn't have to the courage to break-up with me, so he withdrew a lot and needed so much space. No matter how much space he got, it wasn't good enough.
We're done. He wanted to stay friends and sent me one last lame email about friendship. I just didn't respond to the email and that's been it.
I feel very down about the prospect of meeting a man who will be 'into' me. A person would have to be special to love me and my child. I really don't think people, i.e. men, are that special in this day and age. I'm forcing myself to get out and do things. I have a neighborhood ladies coffee and cookie thing tonight and I'm making myself go on a hiking trip that I found out about on a community website. I'm making myself continue my workout routine, etc.... I just feel heartbroken and I'm like a shell going through the motions.
I get angry whenever I think about my footloose ex. He's most likely breathing a sigh of relief to be single again. I don't miss 'him'. I'm scared that I'll end up with another man like him. He was so much fun in the beginning and we really seemed to like each other mutually. You just never know and I'd be reluctant to try again.

I think you need to take a look around this board at the number of very happily married women who were once in your shoes. And happily dating women who were once in your shoes. GOOD MEN are out there, men who will love you and your child, men who desire commitment, men who desire a lifetime of love with one woman. I think the guy who you've been seeing the last 8 months and your ex husband are being allowed to cloud your judgment.
Hugs to you! Enjoy the activities you have planned!
Mindy
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The wise ones of old had subtle wisdom
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So profound that they could not be understood.
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All wear and need never be renewed.
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