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| Mon, 09-24-2007 - 8:33am |
Well, last week was very busy and nothing seemed to go as planned. Everything took much more work, time and energy than I had. By Friday evening I was completely exhausted, but was looking forward to a nice relaxing weekend. When I got home, I spent a little time winding down then got some very bad news. My mother passed away last week. I knew that she wasn't in very good health but was still taken by surprise. We were not close but she was the only mom I had and now she is gone. I haven't seen her for a long time and didn't get a chance to tell her goodbye. She passed away at home, alone and was found on the floor.
Right now I just feel very lonely and sad. It was a very rough weekend and I feel like I need to make some changes in my life. I need to focus on being happy and healthy and making sure my children know they are loved.
I know this isn't probably the place to share all this, but I just felt it might help me. Thanks for listening.
Priscilla

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"I go through periods where I am fine and then times when I am not."
(((((((((((Priscilla))))))))))))
You'll have that for awhile. I lost my mom in May and I am still hit by bouts of crying out of the blue at times. Even though I can be fine for weeks at a time... then it just HITS and I'm crying for a day or two. I know that Rebecca lost hers a couple of years ago and she will have times when it just all hits her, too. And other times, we can be okay and seem to handling it well. But then a song, or a commercial or a phrase... will just set things off. You just never know what or when.
Just understand that this kind of thing WILL happen, and that you're not "troubled" if you have good days and bad days. That is very normal! It's still VERY new and fresh for you right now- so it's expected. But know that as time goes on, the crying bouts will lessen and you will heal slowly. Keep her alive in ways you love (remember the good things), and let her go at the same time so you can move on.
~shrimpy
"A man who wants something will find a way; a man who doesn't will find an excuse." ~Stephen Dolley Jr.
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