What could have been....
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| Sun, 10-28-2007 - 1:52am |
I was at the "what could have been" place tonight. I hate when I go there.
My friend and neighbor invited me over for dinner. Her boyfriend was cooking and he had a friend who was visiting. I looked like junk but he said don't worry come as you are. So I did. He had fixed a wonderful meal and we play cards afterwards and drank coffee. It's after midnight and I am soooo wired!But it was hazelnut..couldn't turn that down! Course, I gave them a few laughs because I was getting all hooped up on caffeine.
We had good conversation and had some laughs while playing cards and it was a nice evening. But the whole time I was sitting there I kept thinking, this would be so much more fun if J (my summer guy) were here instead of this other guy (he was kind of dull, tried to be funny but he wasn't). Then there I went....going to the place of what could've been. Why do we do that to ourselves? I suppose it's mostly fantasy stuff but it sure is a crappy place to be. So now as I'm typing this I'm reminding myself of the things I knew I couldn't tolerate being with J.
Tomorrow's another day right?!

I think our memories trick us. We choose to remember many good things and put them on a pedestal. But you are right to remind yourself of all the reasons you can't be with him.
Too bad this one couldn't have been better!!
And yes, tomorrow is always another day.
<<amazed at the power we have over our own minds.
Hello!!! Icompletely understand what you guys are saying about what could have been. I am in a funl b/c my 2yr boyfriend had too many issues that clashed with mine so I put him out. I am 5months pregnant but I am not really showing that much. Regardless of what I do or where I go I have guys attemting to take me out but I aways wish that I was still with my ex. We get along & he will be around for the baby but I find myself turning all these guys down b/c something doesn't feel right. I know I deserve to be happy especially right now b/c I have a baby coming & my hormones are all outta wack but its like I look at these guys and wonder why would they want to take me out or do I have the mental commpacity to deal with some guy trying to attract me. I wish things could be different with me & my ex but we have discovered that togather we don't work well so we are better of apart. He promises he wants to be with me but i live by example & show him how many different reasons we cant arguing & tension in the household just isn't good for anyone.