What is happening to me....
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| Thu, 04-17-2008 - 7:40pm |
I'm getting hooked... that is what's happening...
Last night, TG was suppose to meet me for karaoke... I haven't been in over a week... and it's something i would do anyway... (trying to stay my normal self..) so i invite him to join me.. and thought i'd go back to his place after (remember all that talk about sausage from the other post... i was looking forward to it)... anyway, I get to the karaoke place and TG doesn't show...
I was very disappointed... i go by myself all the time so i don't know why i was feeling like an @$$ sitting by myself... maybe because i was expecting him, so i wasn't my usual open to meeting everyone self... instead i kinda sat alone and started getting mad that TG didn't show... I called him 5 or 10 times... began thinking he blew me off... okay another part of me thought he could have just fell asleep.. he worked hard all day and i work til 11 pm... But nevertheless, i was upset and disappointed.. and realized just how much i've been getting used to seeing him or talking to him... just how much i was getting used to his sweetness... And last night, i started thinking the worst and not liking myself for buying into it...
Okay, so he called my phone at 3 am.... i didn't pick up but he left a very apologetic vm saying he did fall asleep and felt horrible.... said he was afraid to check his vm and hoped i would still be talking to him... He called me again at 9 am hoping that i would forgive him for last night... Here's where i think i can pat myself on the back... i forgive, yes, but i didn't let him off the hook too easily... I told him honestly how I felt instead of saying... it's okay... I said, "honestly i felt like an @$$ sitting at the bar by myself waiting for you... Yes, i was pi$$ed that you didn't show. I was feeling quite stood up... it didn't feel good." He said sorry and that he felt terrible.. I don't think he slept well after he woke up at 3 am. He really wanted to see me... said he would never stand me up on purpose.. said he owes me one. And asked me how he can make it up to me.
First off, I'm relieved... i've been stood up many times before and usually that means the guy found another offer and usually also meant i'd never hear from them again. So, that didn't help in the lack of trust issue.. but I'm going to put it behind me. TG and i have talked again at dinner... I said if you truly didn't mean to then, let's put it behind us.... I know we have different work schedules... he works 7 am - 5 pm and i work 2 pm to 11 pm.. After a night together i can sleep in and he still has to work all day.... so i understand.
How would you make the guy... make it up to you? I should have told him he needs to buy me flowers or chocolate.. but i thought that would be too demanding... we've only been dating a couple weeks... I think if he takes me OUT tonight... that will suffice.
Was i too easy on him, too hard, or just right?
Loonybunny

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Lol- darn trait to have, hey?
OMG- too funny: anytime I AM out with my dad, I always find myself saying "hey DAD..." when the waitress comes by so she doesn't think I'm on a date... weird hey?
I agree with the others that a sincere
I'm laughing REALLY hard right now - THANKS - I needed that!
>>I'm sure Loony gets more of that with her preteen!<< Preteen?? Try full on teenager who's gonna be driving next year...
You're absolutely right i was pulling the "call every guy in my address book" routine but stopped at the cop (thank God)... i thought of that too... I think when I'm on a date.. i don't think about all these things.. it's the day after..... i reflect and question everything... Rlch, thanks for saying i'm only 28..lol.. i wasn't going to correct you on that one either....lol... I have my moments.. and it could have been PMS... i usually get extra loony during that time.
TG is stirring me up... that's a good thing... i needed to face my issues sooner or later.. and if it doesn't work out, it's okay, i've learned a little more about myself... TG knows a little about my ex, too, he asked me about it... (they are both plumbers btw....) So I pretty much told him my ex was a crack addict and when I stood up to him, he became abusive. TG asked how long i put up with it... and i said 1-2 years... not long but long enough to leave a few scars.... that for the most part i thought i dealt with... but i'm realizing that there is only so much you can deal with ALONE and other things ya have to deal with in RELATION to others.... life is about relationships... I will practice daily to OWN my issues, not worry about
but i'm realizing that there is only so much you can deal with ALONE and other things ya have to deal with in RELATION to others.... life is about relationships
I am right there with you girl!
April
>>Perhaps there is something you can do to distract yourself (other than the cell phone dialing) <<
I think you should start singing! You always love that so much.
Good luck with couch shopping!
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