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| Fri, 01-06-2006 - 10:44pm |
I AM SO ANGRY!! 4 WEEKS AGO I WAS THIS 23 YEAR OLD WOMAN WITH A 18 MONTH OLD SON AND ONE ON THE WAY. ENGADGED TO MY JR HIGH SCHOOL CRUSH, LIVING IN A NICE HOUSE AND EACH HAVE A NICE CAR. BOTH WORKING AND HAPPY. AND TODAY I AM LIVING WITH MY PARENTS WITH MY 18 MONTH OLD SON, 25 WEEKS PREGANANT WITH MY SECOND SON WHILE THERE DAD IS OUT SCREWING. WE BROKE UP BECAUSE I FOUND A CONDOM I NHIS WALLET AND THE TRUTH BE TOLD!! HES CHEATING AND HAS BEEN FOR THE PAST 3-4 MONTHS. WTF!!! AND I'M PREG BEING A MOM AND PLANNING OUR WEDDING. WHAT THE HELL? WHAT HAPPENED.
ALL I DO IS CRY, IAM SO DEPRESSED!! I KNOW I SHOULD NOT EVEN WASTE THE TIME BECAUSE HE IS THE ONE THAT SCREWED UP OUR FAMILY. I LOVE MY BOYS VERY MUCH!! BUT THERE DAD IS AN ASS WHOLE AND I HATE HIM FOR THIS. HOW CAN YOU LOVE SOMEONE SO MUCH AND HATE THEM THE SAME AMOUNT. AND ALL HE CAN SAY IS HE IS SORRY AND HE WANTS THINGS TO CHANGE AND FOR US TO WORK ON THINGS GOING BACK TO NORMAL, WHILE HES STILL MESSING WITH THE CHIC HES BEEN CHEATING ON ME WITH.
I'M CRAZED AND DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK OR DO. CAN ANYONE RELATE?? HELP ME GET THREW THIS.

First of all, ((((HUGS)))) and welcome to the board!
I know it's hard for you right now, you're struggling to understand things and you're so in love with this person who's let you down and your kids down.
Wow ,that was a lot to consume. but you are right and i have told myself this already. it's just so hard to accept. There are so many things to the story. He lost a lot not just me and his kids but he is about to loose his freedom as well. Found out that he has been selling drugs and this was after I had moved out. He came and stayed here with me and his son christmas eve and hristmas day, well the day after christmas him and 2 of his guy friends and his "girlfriend" were pulled over and he went to jail on drug charges, come to find out he has been being watched, if they would of raded my hoiuses they would of taken my baby. and it would of been because of him. I did not know what was going on till i went to court the next morning, cause till this point we were talking about fixing our relationship and how to do so. well in court i find out the truth about why he was never home and who he was with while doing the selling, she was there. she told me everything, crazy thing is she knew all about me and his kids and our family. (dumb skank, but hes not better)
after court he called me collect i asked if it was true and he said yes!! he wasnted me to help tp get him out, to get his bond money from who ever i could of his friends and family. he said he needed me, i told hi mto screw off why should i do for him, when he just screwed my family over. but long story short, he goes to court o nthe 10th of this month and he will be told of everything he is being charged with and then will get new date of court for sentencing, so he might be doing some time.
its crazy cause one day he had me and the kids a house and cars and the next nothing, within 2 weeks time he lost everything. now the house we were living in the lease is in my name icant afford to pay on my own so i had to break the lease and am goign to be sued for 9 months rent at 800 per month plus court cost. (its bull crap)
we were not married but i know for a fact he would never fight me for custody, or take me to court because he would fear having to ay child support through them and he would rather ive me cash each week. he has a 6 year old little girl and they closed there case to pay cash weekely instead of going threw the courts, so im not worried about that. as far as going back to him HELL NO!! i love him dearly yes, i miss him yes!!! but iam not the one that screwed the family up and i dont know if i could ever trust him again. i told him that after he gets his life back together and stable he would have to bust his ass to earn my trust back before the thought would arise to get back together. so basically, not in this life time.
it just hurts because i have known him since the 8th grade and were 23 24 years old now, he is my best friends brother, he has neber been like this, this is not him, so its hard to believe even though i know the truth.
his best friend of 15 years was murdered in detroit this past august and ever since then he has been drinking, drugs and partying. not himself, never home and moody. and cheating i see now as well. IF i were to give him another chance, it woiuld not be close to the near future, its just so hard!!
This is not easy for you - what an emotional turmoil! Never mind when you are pregnant.
Edited because I just read your second post.
THANK goodness you see everything clearly and you did not get swept up in the mess with the drugs or the courts.
You just take real good care of you and the little one - I hope your family helps you!!
Keep us posted!!
Good luck and be strong.
Edited 1/9/2006 9:30 am ET by cl-west1745
Hi and welcome to the board.
I'm sure there are a lot of factors here as to what happened with him.