You shouldn't kiss me like this

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You shouldn't kiss me like this
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Tue, 12-26-2006 - 4:58pm

unless you mean it like that, cause I'll just close my eyes and I won't know where I'm at...

Well, I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend and holiday! I know I did.

My best friend had a Christmas party at her house Saturday night, so my other friend and I went, with my children. The friend having the party was the one with the ex-husband that I've sort of been crushing on. For simplicity's sake, I'll call him SS. He was at the party.

We ended up chatting with each other all night, as there were a lot of people there and neither of us knew many of them. My other friend left, and he and I ended up staying. We were outside in her garage at one point, and suddenly he says "Kiss me." So I did, and we ended up kissing for quite a while. At one point, a group of people walked in, but once they saw what was going on, they left. I felt like I was about 15 again, not that that is a bad thing.

We both ended up staying the night, and we slept on the couch in her living room. While we didn't have sex, we both certainly wanted to, which was actually a wonderful feeling. Not that I consider myself a tease, but it was nice to feel desired again, and not to have to do anything about it. At the same time, it's a bizarre situation, as SS and his ex-wife have a very close relationship and I happen to be best friends with her.

One interesting thing is that his (and my friend's) son was in the kitchen at one point. The son is 13, and completely out of the blue, he said to me "My dad likes you." Since the son and I see each other quite frequently and he's buddies with my kids because of my relationship with his mom, I didn't know what to say. He's old enough to get that, I guess, but since his father and I aren't anything but friends who happen to have made out for a while, I didn't really know how to respond. So, I said nothing, and pretended I didn't hear him.

In the morning, when we were both getting ready to leave, SS asked for my number, which I gave to him. I'm glad he asked for it, and mentioned getting together, but also not holding my breath. It isn't that I don't think he'll call, but I'm also not going to wait around for him to.

Here's the thing- I'm not sure I want an actual relaitonship with SS. I have liked him for a while, but I don't know that we could actually date. The chemistry is obviously there, but the situation is definitely unique.

I also still like Double D at work, and I don't know how he feels about me, but he's certainly being more chatty and he definitely singles me out to talk. So far, that's all there's been.

I feel odd that I can be interested, seemingly equally, in two different guys. I also feel like they should be the ones to pursue me, and I'm not sure Double D ever will. I also don't know that SS necessarily wants any type of romantic relationship from me beyond sex. We didn't discuss it, which I am okay with.

Double D actually asked about the party today. We spent some time talking about our weekends, and obviously I left a few details out. I sort of get the feeling he'd like to ask me out, and I'm trying to make it clear that I'd be receptive to that without throwing myself at him. I think if he's interested, he'll ask, and until he does, I have enough to keep me busy.

I've also started doing OLD again, as of last week. So far, I've been matched with a couple of prospects that seem very nice, so we'll see how that goes. I've realized that I'm fully ready to be in a relaiotnship, but don't need to.

All in all, it was a great time, and I enjoyed myself immensely, even if nothing ever comes of it.

So, there's my steamy weekend details- and hopefully I'll have good news to report one way or another soon.

Moody- still reeling


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Tue, 12-26-2006 - 5:08pm

Wow - that is a fun weekend for you!!

It is great that you have 2 prospects and still more from match.

I think you should not have to decide anything now. The situation with SS warrants time and a good discussion between you both with what you both want and with regards to the situation. I don't think I would be comfortable with a friend's exh - but you should never say never I guess. But I don' think you should be there for just the sex.

If I was you I would keep it casual between everyone and just wait and see. I would try to date as many as I could if I had so many interesting prospects. Remember fivesense's rule (and mine too for the next one) to keep them out of the house and be out in public places so you can keep them slow :-P

Edited to add: what is the update with DD?




Edited 12/26/2006 9:28 pm ET by cl-west1745
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Wed, 12-27-2006 - 3:46pm

Holy moley, do I have updates for you all!

Double D asked for my number today! I was at lunch when his shift ended, and he singled me out, we chatted about work stuff for a little bit, then asked if I'd had lunch yet. I told him I was on lunch now, and that it was almost over.
Then he asked what I was doing for New Year's, and I said, "I don't have any plans, yet." He said he didn't either, but that another person we work with had told him about a local band playing near where we work. I made some noises about the band, we talked a bit more about work stuff.

Then I said I only had a couple of minutes to get back to work, and he had to go get ready for the gym. I said "see ya later.".. then I went out to my car, and his was parked right next to it. He was exiting from another door, and headed to his at the same time.

He asked about my car to make conversation, then said "well, yeah, if you don't have plans yet, we should go see the band on New Year's. I normally just stay home, but this would be fun." I agreed that we should, he then said, "So, do you have my number?" And although I could get it from work, I didn't, and said "No, why don't I give you mine?" So, he took it, and we'll see what happens.

Oh- I almost forgot- I have a date friday night with a guy from match that I've talked to a couple of times. He's quite a lot shorter than I am, but so far, that's the only thing I don't like about him. We'll see how it goes, I'm keeping an open mind. He is very nice, and completely different from most of the guys I normally go for, not that some of them aren't nice, but he's just different.

Haven't heard anything from SS, but haven't been sitting around waiting for him to call, either, so it's all good right now. In fact, time and space has given me the perspective to see that I let my hormones take over, and while that isn't always a bad thing, it isn't good either if what I want is a relationship.

So, there's my update, now we'll see what happens.

Moody, who sees the value behind the statement, "when it rains it pours!"


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Wed, 12-27-2006 - 6:31pm

Good good good good - all good. I like that you are keeping an open mind and dating more than one guy.

It is so exciting that DD asked you out for New Year's Eve. That is very good indeed!! What are you going to wear? Keep us posted for sure.

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Fri, 12-29-2006 - 2:34am

Sounds fun to me!

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Fri, 12-29-2006 - 3:22pm

Rebecca, it's funny you ask about my friend. Before I'd ever met SS, she said to me once "You should meet my ex-husband. You guys would totally hit it off." She obviously knows us well, as we do.
She's remarried, and the weirdness of the is all on me, I think, as she's fine with it. He seems to be, as well.

Update- I cancelled tonight's date, as I'm feeling a little under the weather. I also don't really think this is the guy for me. If I were really into him, a little head cold wouldn't be prompting me to cancel the first date. Ah, well.

Moody- who's thinking two men on the horizon is enough


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Fri, 12-29-2006 - 4:35pm

That's neat about the DD date. It seems like he put some thought into it and that's always a good sign.

About SS, Judy is right about what I would say. LOL. If he wants to see you, make sure it's a date out in public. Since you had a little makeout session, I would not want to be in any situation where it could easily lead to sex. Make him wine and dine you for a while if he wants to pursue you.