He lied to me and it's over...
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|Fri, 03-28-2003 - 3:56pm|
The reason I even checked was because, a few weeks back, when he wasn't speaking to me and I wasn't sure if we were breaking up or not, I checked, kind of on the premise that if he *didn't* have an ad back up, there was still hope for us. But he did have one up. Then he wasn't on the site for a couple weeks, so I let it go, but he visited last Friday, so I asked him about it this weekend. He admitted it was him, and that he put it up because he really thought we were done. He took it down Sunday, but I was (I think understandably) a bit suspicious and so have continued to check this week.
I'm just so shocked and disappointed. We seemed to be making such good progress...he reconsidered going to counseling with me, and we were looking into finding one; he was reading this book my therapist had recommended and we were discussing it. He told me a dozen times this week how happy I made him and how committed he was to working things out...and now this. I knew he had issues, but I really did not think he was dishonest. He even says in his ad how he's "honest and a good person"...yeah, so "good" he lies to and hurts the woman he says he loves.
I'm just devastated. Believe me, I'd like nothing more to believe that it's not him, but that's just not possible...there are too many "coincidences".
I know I'll get through this...he isn't the man I thought he was, and I can't tolerate dishonesty...but it hurts like hell at the moment.
I'm posting this on a couple boards just so my online friends know the deal...sorry for the duplication.