is he up to something?
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|Tue, 06-01-2010 - 10:34pm|
i've been with this guy for 2 years now. we've discussed moving in together several times but it seems like when it comes time to actually do it he changes his mind.
he goes through these spells where he won't call me for days. he won't respond to my text messages, and he silences my calls when i call him. but then, just as i begin to hate him, he's the sweetest guy in the whole world. he does everything a woman could ever ask for in a man. so, of course, i forgive him because he's so full of promises that things are going to change, that he's done with all his bs. things go good for about a week, then bam, back to the A word.
i'm so torn because on one hand, i know i deserve better. but on the other hand i'm actually in love with this guy. i have never felt this way for anyone. i would rate my love for him pretty close to the love i have for my children, and i don't know why. there's just something different about him, when i look into his eyes it's like comfort (if that makes any sense) it's like he talks to me through his eyes. i can actually FEEL what i feel in my heart.
we have a very close bond without even speaking. but why does he need so much space? is this just a guy thing? he says he doesn't want to have to answer to someone, he calls it "checking in". i told him it's not "checking in, it's respect". if he wants to go out with his friends on a saturday night, i feel he should tell me instead of leaving me hanging. he feels he shouldn't have to.
it's like he wants me to live with him but then again he doesn't.
i just don't understand. sometimes i think to myself, just accept it, it is what it is. is there better? why does he have so many colors? what's with the txting but not answering? i'm hearing that one alot lately.
come on guys, be honest, why don't you answer?