Stuck in my own misery
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|Sun, 08-17-2014 - 12:53pm|
I don't know exactly what topic this falls under, but here goes:
I have been friends with a guy for about 7 years. We spent many hours talking about our lives ... hobbies, etc. Jus tfriend stuff in general. So, as you would expect, I became a bit too attached and have feelings for him in which in his mind we are just friends. He is in a relationship and I don't want to jeopardize that of course, so I stiffle my 'extra' feelings for him. But lately, I found myself doing what I never wanted to do...FB stalk. Yup, I admit it. And now I feel more depressed, sad and lonely than ever - so much so, I deleted my FB account. Yes, it was a stupid, childish thing to do but it's done. I just didn't want to see him and his girlfriend having fun, going places, they went skydiving, running 5K, and generally being happy and doing all sorts of fun things I wish I could do, especially with him. I know realistically I need to just get on with my life, find a connection, make my own 'happiness' and i know there is no real easy fix other than time.
Since he has beein in a realtionship, his texts and calls have become less and less and of course, I would be happy to hear from him, but that is not the case anymore...I rarely hear from him and if on the rare occasion I do, it's one of those, "well we're off to go skydiving (or firespinning workshop or photoshoot or ____" then I get really envious, stiffle that and respond with a 'have fun" or "sounds great"
So, all in all, yes I know I need to just 'get busy' myself and not think about the who, what, where, when of him and do for myself.
But, how long does this sadness last? I just feel so stuck in my own misery and I know better than this! I am disappointed with myself. :(
Thank you for any suggestions!