Trying to move on, just dont understand
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|Tue, 08-14-2012 - 2:46pm|
I posted this in another board, but figured I would post here as well:
So my situation is one that is kind of complicated.
I got involved with a man & he & I fell in love. We declared our love for eachother. We began making plans for our future together. He had been with a women for 20yrs and he told me that with me it was so easy, being happy was so easy. Communication was so easy. He had never been so open with anyone before, so affectionate with anyone before, never wanted to be affectionate with anyone before. So anyways...we began to make plans to move in together, combine our households (my 1 child, his 4 children) He even expressed his desire to marry one day. Something he never wanted to do with his xGF. He told me that he had falled out of love with his GF & had just been going thru the motions for their children. He had been staying with his family until he could make more permanant plans. Then suddenly he does a complete turn around. He says that he thinks we need to take a break & get our situations under control before we go any further into our relationship. Our seperations from our ex's was very new. But he assured me that nothing would change & we would end up back together in the end. It was me he wanted to be with. This was in June. We didn't speak much thru June. Beg of July comes & I beg him for answers to what is going on & he tells me again that nothing has changed feelings wise but he just needs time to get his things with his kids under control. Mid July comes & I find out that he has moved back into his home with his xGF with his children. He states he has done this for his kids. He just cannot bear to be away from them everyday. And his being out of the house took a toll on his kids. I asked him if we were going to end up back together & his answer is, the only reason we wouldn't be is because of my kids. He messages me later telling me that he wants to be with me & he knows what he wants for his life & thats me but he doesn't know how to have both me & his children. And he needs more time to figure out how to do it. This was mid july. End of july comes & I talk to him briefly & the only thing he says to me is yes he is living in the house for his kids & no he has not forgotten me. So thats my story. I am heartbroken. All the plans we made together. Did they mean nothing? What is going on? He told me he didnt love her & now he is back living in the house again with her? I mean I know they have a 20yr history but if there is no love than why stay? He is only 36yrs old just so u know.