I went through exactly the same thing.
Thank you both for your thoughtful replies. Both are ways I have thought of my confusion. I worry that I'm being too afraid of change and then I worry that I'm not afraid enough. I think most of what I am dealing with is the idea that I am stuck at my job. I teach elementary school. I have a great, secure job. I should feel lucky to have a job that is creative and never boring. However, it is very stressful and after doing it for 20 years, I'm ready for a change. Surprisingly, there isn't many other things a teacher is qualified to do at the same level of pay. I still have another 10 years until I even qualify to retire with any income.
Thank you Dee. I loved your post. I've already started doing some of the things you did. I just thought I was being lazy....but I have seen a little improvement in the last month. Having a place like this to bounce my weird frame of mind off helps.
I think it’s a mid-life thing.
I agree with the others about getting a sense of change by just mixing up some of your usual activities. Several years ago, shortly after I entered my 50s, I went through a period of vague dissatisfaction. A mid-life crisis? I went through that period of dreading getting older but realized that I can't stop time and I can't afford plastic surgery LOL. For me the solution was to try to keep my mind and outlook young, to do that I decided to do something new or different everyday. Just little things like listening to a different style of music, do a different form of exercise, try a food I'd never tasted before. The feelings passed after several months but I still try to mix things up sometimes just to keep life interesting.
Hope this helps!
Again, thank you all. I just love reading everyone's take on this issue.