I am new to the boards.
Welcome to the board.
I think you should allow yourself to mourn the death of the relationship, then focus on enjoying single life for a while and then decide if you're ready to jump back into the dating scene. It sounds like you've already made a huge step by moving into a new place. Take time to enjoy your new place; decorate it, make it yours. Do all the things you gave up for him. Get to know yourself again. And, above all, stick around here.
Welcome to the board!!!!!!!!!!
>>I gave my entire life up for him (I know big mistake) but I did.<<
No you didn't. First of all, 31 is young -- you still have your whole life in front of you. Second, I guarantee this relationship taught you things that you may not fully appreciate until later. Relationships are NOT a waste of time, even if they end. He is part of who you are now -- embrace that, be thankful for the gifts this relationship gave you, and give yourself time to grieve and move on. >>And now I am moving into a new condo and scared to death of the time I will have to think.<<Let's change that around: Just think of all the time you have to think! :) You get a chance to get to know your best friend again - YOU! You might be surprised what your own space and freedom to think and do as you please will lead to. You have new doors to open -- get excited!
I am not trying to be a Pollyanna here. I KNOW how much pain you must feel right now. Saying goodbye to a love is very difficult. I dated someone for five years and we ended much the same way you and your guy did (I was 29). I am now 34, and life has moved on. I am stronger for the experience and so happy for where my life has led me. HUGS. Enjoy getting to know yourself again. Don't focus on meeting men just yet -- just try to do things that feed your own soul and make you happy. Doing that will lead to friends and, someday, a special someone.
AJ, enjoying life with C.
Thank you all for your words!