Depressed and living in despair

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Registered: 04-27-2009
Depressed and living in despair
Wed, 03-23-2011 - 5:36pm

I'm 39, married (1.5 years) with a six year old girl (from previous marriage) and a six month old son. I don't know if I'm dealing with residual PPD, but for months my mood has been so black. I don't recall feeling as dark as I do at any other time in my life.

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Registered: 05-15-2009
Fri, 03-25-2011 - 9:41am
Welcome to the board. I'm sorry that you're having such a tough time right now. I think it sounds like you need to visit your doctor. PPD is a very real problem that can last for a while.

We have a wonderful Depression board here. I would encourage you to stop by and get some support from others who are dealing with similar feelings:

If you're having suicidal thoughts, please consider contacting the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-784-2443 or 1-800-273-8255.

State Hotlines:

Why call a suicide hotline?

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Registered: 10-10-2007
Fri, 03-25-2011 - 11:05am

Hello Amber,

I am the community leader for the Depression Support board here on iVillage.

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Registered: 07-06-2011
Wed, 07-06-2011 - 11:57am
I am not a doctor or clinician of any kind. I am a 37 year old woman in a similar situation. And maybe its depression or maybe marriage just sucks. Or maybe both. I find married life disapointing and lonely. My husband is a nice enough person. None of the bad stuff like drugs or violence etc. But it seems like he can barely handle taking care of himself without his mothers help and he is 43. Much less help me with anything. So I often feel like I am forced into this martyr role. Because I refuse to nag. He is always too tired or just plain forgets just about everything! Raising young children is difficult. You need a support network. I need a support network. Unfortunately my family lives on the otherside of the country. But you are not alone.
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Registered: 03-02-2012
Fri, 03-02-2012 - 11:29am
Print this off and go to your doctor. Zoloft may just not be the right one for you. Explain the side effects and try a different one.
Maybe join a local moms group too so you have an outlet.