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|Tue, 12-23-2003 - 11:09am|
My father has a lot of money . I don't really care about his money what I'm really mad about is that all these years when I have been sick or with my depressions (I'm Bipolar) he has not care even a bit. I haven't got any support from him not emotionally not financially never EVER. And once I went to his house on New Jersey and his wife always treated me like everything they have was their own (you know like saying hey this ain't yours), and also I noticed that she put me against my father even thought I was trying to heal my relationship with my father. Then he started treating me like I wasn't welcome at his home and let me know that I didn't work hard on things and literally that I was good for nothing . I felt awful, frustrated and depressed.
I have always try to keep a relationship with my brothers but they don't answer my calls , don't care about me when I'm sick, I have been so depressed. They are the only family I have in P.R, they have know because of my mother in Boston that I have had suicidal thoughts and they haven't even care.
Now that my father is on vacation in P.R they are together (What a wonderful family (Yeah right!)). Yesterday one of my brothers called me inviting me to a party at his house next saturday were there will be all the family together. And I have decided that I don't want to go they only give me negative vibes and I'm not hypocrite. I rather stay at home they don't deserve my companion. I want a family in good times and in BAD times too..Also I'm tired of always letting people treating me the way they want. I'm learning that I'm in PART responsable for how people treat me, you should place limits. And my negative to go to his party also comes because I know that even thought they don't care when I'm in bad circumstances they will start criticizing me and giving me they're opinions of why I'm still single at 33 etc etc. That doesn't help me a bit. And as you all know I'm starting a new life in Boston on February. What do you think of my desicion of not going to the party?