Going to visit my alma mater...

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Going to visit my alma mater...
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Fri, 10-10-2003 - 11:05am

I'm so excited! I am going to visit my college alma mater and I haven't been back since I graduated. My old college roommate, whom I still keep in touch with, and I are taking the 2-hour trip up there on Homecoming weekend, which is October 24, 25, and 26. We have some things planned. We're meeting up with another old roommate on Friday night and we're going to hang out at our old stomping grounds. On Saturday we're going to the alumni breakfast, the parade and the football game. Other than that, we have nothing else planned, we'll be winging it, which is half the fun. I do have one hang-up, though. There's a guy I had somewhat of a thing with right before he graduated - the year before me. We never really closed the book and I know there is still chemistry between us. We have been in touch only occasionally for the last few years (he found me when one of our alumni directories was published). He's expecting to be at the parties and with his fraternity brothers (he makes the trip every other year and this year he'll be there) and I am expecting to see him. I am married with a child and I am mostly happy. I just know that the doors between us never closed and I want to finally close the chapter, however, I know those old feelings will be coming back to me the instant I see him. I don't want to do anything stupid and I want to keep a straight head, but how can I get past those feelings and finally close the door to that chapter of my life? He's still cute as ever and I don't want to really lose touch with him. He's never acted on anything and either have I, but I'm actually nervous to see him! It's the butterflies in the stomach all over again! We were never a "couple" in college, but we had classes together and hung out together often. We shared a kiss together one night after a friend's party, but whatever was between us never went any further. Personally, I just want to keep the fantasy alive, so to speak. I don't really want to act on anything -- that would hurt too many people. I just want to see him, have those butterflies,

Rebecca
Loving wife to David (3-2

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Registered: 03-21-2003
Mon, 10-13-2003 - 10:34pm

Rebecca,


Huge hugs, honey. Dilemmas like that are always hard. Only you can do what is right for you, whatever it is. Since you weren't asking for advice, I won't try and give any...heehee!


I will say...WHOO HOO! Sounds like you're gonna have a blast! Go have fun, and then come back and tell us all about it!