update: my life in a current misery
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|Sun, 02-28-2010 - 12:28pm|
Argh....I just got through going through ALL of my matches on Y! P (yes, all 586 of them!) and not ONE interested me enough to write to or even save their profile!
I had a conversation over the phone with one guy yesterday and I honestly don't think he's going to call me back. That's ok, though, because I feel the same way -- that there probably wasn't any "connection". After the phone call, I was saying to myself, "I want my old bf back!!!"
I am still in contact with the old bf. We're considered "friends". I know he's probably moved on, but I'm still "attached" to him. :(
I guess I have moved on a bit. I've made the decision to follow my graduate dreams - finally! - and am in the process of studying for the GRE. My old bf wouldn't have wanted me to go because of the student loan problem. I am worried about having to take out a loan too, but I guess I am a risk taker when it comes down to education.
I am just too exhausted and I guess despondent. My other ex was telling me that I shouldn't make this dating thing my career and I'm trying not to, but it's just sucks sometimes not having someone to call and talk about stuff with or not having someone to go see a movie with or take a long walk and talk about your dreams and passions with, you know?
Sigh........just venting and rambling, I guess. Thank you for hearing me out.
Btw, I am formerly cunygrad2007, if you gals remember me! I decided to change my member name because I was getting bored with it. So along with this post being a vent and rambling, I guess it's a current update on myself.