I had a very horrible experience this week. Upon returning from work
Before I say anything, I want to offer hugs and lots love and send good positive energy to you and yours.
My gut reaction to your break-in is one of anger - no one - absolutely no one - has the right take anything from another in the way you taken from. That act is usually good for at least a 10 minute tirade from the top of my soap box on the ills of society and the like. I'm thinking you could probably pull out your own box and have an even more impassioned speech - so I'm letting that go. besides, I hate it when people preach to the choir.
<^>Has anyone else had anything happen that has made them question their beliefs and what was your outcome?<^>Oh yes! - more than a couple times, I'd say! In one of my situations, I changed how I looked at things spiritually in its entirety. I *am now* a pagan and no longer xian. Through my losses, I discovered pieces of myself I had no idea existed. And now, even though there can still be moments of sadness, as well as anger, I find I'm much stronger in how I do believe and in the way I live my life.
I can see how changing faiths or looking at how we believe can be really important, not from a "I thought I was doing all the right things - but evidently I'm not - what do I do now" point of view, but more from the *loss of your innocence and feeling safe* way of looking at things. It's certainly a feeling of grief, on several levels, in your situation. And it takes time - Time to recoup your sense of balance, to grieve your loses, to gather the guardians you have around you to keep you safe and feeling safe, and time to find the answers that may be most important in your healing.
But I don't know how to tell you to do or even go about that except to have you think about the Gods and Goddesses and guardians you have - this is the time to hold them closer for the time being. Ask them - Ask the Universe to show you what you need to know. The Universe didn't fail you - the locks on your door did because there were sneaky and malicious *Toad Bucket Cowards* smarter than your locks who were bound and determined to find anything they could get their hands on and did! I'm so grateful you or maybe your daughter weren't there - it could have turned out totally disastrous!
You'll come through this - I promise - Hugs Willow!
And yes, I've had my faith shaken up a few times, mostly during my first marriage. My ex was an abusive alcoholic/drug addict. He was also an atheist who felt that any form of religious/spiritual expression was wrong. He knew that I was a Pagan when we met, but I guess he thought that it was just a phase. He ended up browbeated me so badly about my religion that in order to keep the peace I took down my altar and packed away my books and supplies. I thought that I had abandoned my God/desses, but They never abandoned me.
My life eventually got so bad that I attempted suicide. I had reached the end and no longer believed in anything and no longer cared what happened to me. That's when the God/desses proved to me that They were still there, that all I had to do was to call upon Them, which I did. I still went through more hell after that, which ended up in a murder attempt on me by my ex. But I survived and my life is much, much better than it was before. I'm remarried to someone who is agnostic. He doesn't care what I believe and doesn't tell me that my beliefs are wrong. And not only is my faith stronger than ever, it's been changing and growing. I started out as a Wiccan, moved onto Celtic Reconstructionism and am now studying to be a Druid.
One thing that I have learned about life is that you can never know what is going to be throw at you. You can decide to let it lay you down, but you also have the choice to get back up, which will make you stronger than ever. You can get through this, Willow. It will take time and courage, but you can do it.
Thank you SOOOOO much for all your words of wisdom, your perpestive & support. It really helped. I have felt so angry and it's almost
Thank you SOOOOO much Honey for all your words of wisdom & support. It really helped and I was thankfull no one was home. Angry that they had hurt my dogs though, but thankfull it wasn't worse. I have felt so angry and it's almost