Im in love with my pastor!!

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Registered: 12-31-1969
Im in love with my pastor!!
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Wed, 08-01-2012 - 12:52am
Okay, this is long but to understand my story you will have to know the beginning. When I was 18 years old my pastor came to pick me up for church.. we ended up at his house and when we were there I remember him wanting to keep hugging me. I hugged hin but on the last hug, I felt his penis on me. I felt weird so I just asked him could we leave.. after that. I told my mom she didnt say anything i told my uncle and he told someone and it got back to him.. he was upset.. but later we squashed it. So he got married a few years back.. 2010 i think. So, last year his wife went away for a week. He started texting me.. asking me weird questions but I didnt think anything of so, he eventually asked me over to his house. I went. He asked me questions about sex, one to be exact was had I ever had a orgasm. I felt a little shy. But before I left he asked for a hug and when he embrassed me I felt the same way I felt when I was 18 but this time, I wanted him. I wanted to be near him.. I felt a connection but I quickly told him that I had to leave but he kept asking me to stay.. so the next day he didnt talk to me.. his wife came back ofcourse but as the weeks passed he kept ignoring me.. not talking to me.. not texting me back when I text him.. but i started having dreams about him.. i was jealous.. i wanted him more.. so one day recent we went to a church filunction and as my sister and I was getting out of the car he was getting in his and he gave me look that it felt like him and I could read.. and oh yea, no guy is never good enough.. he acted weird when I brought a guy friend to dinner.. I felt like I was his ex or something.. but if there is someone that can help me with this situation please help.. please dont be negative.. please give me advise and tell me of you think he feels the same way as me.. Thanks in advance!!
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Registered: 06-24-2010
Wed, 08-01-2012 - 9:59am

My instinct says that this guy is bad news, pastor or not.  My advice would be to find a new church where you feel comfortable and forget about him.  If you feel like you can't get over your infatuation with him, then I think you should think about counseling (and not from him).