Unhappy for over 4 years
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|Tue, 09-07-2010 - 9:50pm|
To some of you, my story may seem a bit familiar, as I have posted on ivillage a couple years back. I'll make this as short as possible.
My boyfriend & I have been dating for a little over 4yrs and lived together off and on pretty much the whole time. Hence, our r-ship has also been off and on several times.
Our last argument was about 1 week before his b'day last month. Although I don't recall what the fight was about, I managed to stick around for his b'day and watch him mope around the house all day. The day following his b'day I decided I was completely unhappy and took any of my personal belongings that I keep around and drove back to my mom's house to stay.
Since then, we have been trying to work things out. Unfortunately, I haven't felt the same anymore. I have been on two 3-day trips to visit my family in the past month, by myself. I feel like I need time to let myself clear my head and think about if this is what I want for the rest of my life. I just got back from my second trip for Labor Day weekend. We had another argument this morning and now he wants to break up.
It never fails, every year I can bank on him starting an argument right before my b'day. His rationale for this is since he wasn't happy on his b'day, why should I be happy on mine? Since we didn't do anything for his, why should we do anything for mine?
My b'day is this Friday and I have already invited friends for a Girl's Night Out. It's not a big "F.U.", I just want to be able to CELEBRATE my b'day. No one deserves to feel like crap on their own b'day. I shouldn't let myself stay with someone who will intentionally do that to me.
Any advice to help me move on will be very much appreciated!