A year and a half later
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|Sun, 08-22-2010 - 8:45pm|
I am 26 years old and about a year and a half ago I broke up with a guy I was seeing. He was 14 years older then me and we were long distance. He wouldn't commit to me and wouldn't even call me once a week. He was the first guy I have ever slept with and I still have feelings for him, and still feel love for him.
A friend of mine and I met for drinks the other day. She knew him really well and never really got along with him. She said last time she was in his city he went to a get together she attended and found out that he had been dating a girl for about a year. My heart stopped beating and I had to fight to keep back the tears. I know it's been a year and a half but it still stings.
I still have constantly thought about him and feel I don't really have closure from what happened. I ended it abruptly and I completely removed him from my life. Deleted all pictures, email addresses, cell #'s, everything. I told him I didn't want to be friends with him. Someone once told me you never really get over somebody until you find someone else.
I guess I was hurt he found someone so quickly and I haven't found anyone since him. It hurt to know what he doesn't think about me anymore and moved on so easily. I've thought about maybe contacting him again so we could possibly be friends. But I don't know if I will regret that or not. It could be good or it could just make things worse. I guess I'm just looking for advice on how to fill the void. Any suggestions?