Ahh Phooey I blew it!

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Ahh Phooey I blew it!
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Fri, 01-09-2004 - 2:39pm
A few days ago I made these delicious cookies for a friend who is 21 weeks pregnant. She was craving them. They are chocolate and orange coated shortbread wedges. A decadent treat. I was sooo good when I made them and pretty darn good when I packaged them up.

The day before yesterday I packed up the car with the kids, my body pillow for her belly a couple of good paperbacks and her one true desire that day, my cookies.

I was on the way to her house when I got a call from her best friend telling me that she had been admitted to L&D, a possible ruptured bag, worried that she'd broken her waters. Tests came back that she had not. Baby was fine. No infection. Fine. (Last year she delivered a little boy at 24 weeks who was so sick with the strep B virus that he had no chance.

It turns out that this time there was no trace of the strep B, but she was already dilated to 4 cm. They tried to do a cerclage, where they sitch the cervix to prevent further dilation. Something happened and the membrane ruptured and they had to induce labor. 24 hours later she delivered a little girl, stilborn. I am devasted for her. To have to bury one child is one thing, but two I can not even imagine.

I brought the cookies out of the car... took them out of their container... and had three of them. THREE!!!!

Oh well, there is always tomorrow and I had better make sure that they are hidden from me by day's end.

Not that that is ANY excuse. They were there. I am in such a fog and over tired from taking care of two sick kids and being up all night and cleaning up barf, etc...

Thanks for listening!

Jessica

120/112/10~something

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Registered: 01-02-2004
Fri, 01-09-2004 - 2:44pm
I am so sorry to hear your story.

ONLY THREE? I would have been good for the whole jar!

Keep your chin up and get back on track. I think that was probably a minor set back!!!!

Good luck!

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Fri, 01-09-2004 - 2:45pm

OH NO!

MelMel
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Fri, 01-09-2004 - 2:49pm

Wow, Jessica, what a story.

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Registered: 05-12-2003
Fri, 01-09-2004 - 3:05pm
no really, they are HUGE cookies!!

Thanks,

Jessica

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Registered: 03-21-2003
Fri, 01-09-2004 - 3:08pm
Ok, so how big is huge?
MelMel
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Fri, 01-09-2004 - 3:26pm
I am hesitant about bringing them to her. First of all, she'll be in no mood to see anyone for quite some time. She was like that the first time around. Secondly, I think the cookies, at this point would be more painful than delicious to her. She craved oranges and chocolate and that's why the cookies were made. I don't think I could give her something to remind her of something so painful. The cookies are now in Tupperware and sealed!!! They do freeze well and they'll remain there, in the freezer, until someone can enjoy them... other than me!

Jessica

By the way, they are huge cookies, 3 is a lot!!!

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Fri, 01-09-2004 - 3:29pm
Thanks!

Now I can kick myself 'cause I can't get that sweet taste out of my mouth!

I'll go have a cup of coffee and I think a Greek salad is in order for tonight!

Jessica

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Fri, 01-09-2004 - 3:35pm
welllllll... they are triangle shaped... think of a small pie slice... like the size of, hmmm, a quarter of a salad plate! Whoa, all three together, not each slice. I was not skimping any on the chocolate that I dipped them into either! Oh God, and you know what... it was really SO worth it!!!

OK, going to get my coffee now and hope that gets this sweet craving out of my mouth!

Jessica

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Fri, 01-09-2004 - 3:39pm
Well, in that case I wouldn't either.
MelMel
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Fri, 01-09-2004 - 3:46pm
You've received devastating news about your friend losing her second baby, you have two sick little ones of your own, you're exhausted, and and you ate three cookies. I'm trying to think of a really bad punishment for you, but sounds like you've already done your time. And that was before you starting beating yourself up. And you ate only three cookies - they would have been mere crumbs if I'd have been you.

I've got tears in my eyes for your friend (TOM contributing to my weepiness, no doubt). I hope your little ones get better soon - they do bounce back quickly, don't they? - and I hope you feel better, too.

Hugggsss,

Donna

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