On Sun I got hurt at my second job.
You know, I was like that right before I reached my breaking point.
"OMG, I got engaged, the world will never be the same!...."
I don't really care about my H or what he thinks of me I suppose.
I agree with much of Deb's post, but would counter a particular point.
The insanity of this disease grips us, and holds us in its clutches. It makes us lash out at everyone and everything. We are mean, defensive, insensitive, and none of our actions make sense.
Why...well., that is the insanity of the disease. We are truly "insane"., in so many ways.
The saddest part to me about all of this is what your children have to live with and experience.
You can chose to stay for whatever reasons you feel are valid. Your children though, well, they are learning patterns of behavior that will be with them for the rest of their lives. Sadly, alot of children growing up with an alcoholic/addict parent/sibling in the house experience harmful, self destructive behavior.
Equity in the house is one thing. Your children seeing you suffering, even questioning if you have been injured by your husband is another.
Thanks to all of you for your wise words.