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Hanging in there
| Thu, 02-09-2006 - 12:15pm |
There's no "emoticon" for how I feel today. I'm glad to report a 3.5 lb loss at my "official" weigh in at the dr. office this morning. That's a lb. less than I had seen on Friday (4.5) when I did my own "unofficial" weigh in there. Of course, Friday's weight was after a more than 12 hour fast for blood work and last night I ate a very late dinner. I know that easily accounts for the one pound difference, but I'm still feeling as though my bubble has burst - mainly because my MD showed no enthusiam at all over my "success" and really offered no encouragement - his attitude kind of sounded like "You've tried before and failed, so let's not get our hopes up this time". I'm also getting nothing but complaints from hubby and son because I'm refusing to keep the kitchen stocked up with junk foods and sweet desserts/snacks. They make fun of me riding my new exercise bike and even use it as a coat rack and pile things around it that I have to move before I can get on it. Sticking to the program is hard enough without having to endure all the aggravation and lack of support. Both hubby and son also need to lose weight and neither has a clue how to even spell the word exercise, let alone participate! And my dr. has acquired a prominate expansion over his beltline since I saw him 3 months ago. Maybe they are all afraid that I will finally succeed and make them look/feel worse than they already do, so they will do what they can to keep me from my goals. Well, I know that I can not continue my life of arthritic pain and anxiety about body image and health problems. Nobody can fix this for me - I ate my way into this shape and I'm the only one who can do something about changing that! With or without their help! Can we hear a big YGG? (You Go, Girl!)

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The guys discovered some uneaten SuperBowl munchies over the weekend, so it's been pretty quiet here. Kind of reminds me of the dog - throw him a small biscuit and he thinks he's in a bone pile! I am still getting noise about the lack of ice cream - they refuse to make the instant pudding (how hard is that?) and they refuse to drive down the road and get their precious ice cream. So - suffer! I've invited them to go shopping with me and pick out what they want...but it's not worth their time and effort. So, I'm buying what's on my list. If they want something else, they can either go to the store with me or on their own (both drive and have cars). Hubby has cholesterol problems and both hubby and son are overweight. They are not going to be blaming me for their condition any more! If I can lose weight on what I'm buying, preparing, and eating and I'm making the same available to them, then I no longer have any guilt about slowly causing their deaths with sugar and fat laden meals. Hubby did make an effort to buy what he wanted - he came home on Friday with a 3 lb. package of hotdogs and white bread rolls. Fine - I don't even like hotdogs, so it's no temptation to me!
I have to be sure to make out my menu at least for 3 days at a time - I'm leaving too much to "chance" and treated my first week on Phase II much too casually. Some of my stress issues (sick parent at a distance, things going on at work) have eased up a bit. If I get my plan in writing and commit to doing my exercise...well, it will only take 10 minutes to get back on the right track!
"I tell my picky eater DS all the time that mommy provides him with healthy food that's good for his body; it's his choice whether to eat it or not, but I've done my job by putting it on the table."
I'll have to remember this the next time my picky ds starts complaining about his food options. Fortunately he's old enough to make something for himself if he really doesn't want to eat what I make. He moans and groans an awful lot, especially on weekends, but overall I know that I'm doing the right thing. Eventually he'll broaden his food likes, but for now, if he eats cereal for dinner once or twice a week, I can live with that. Since I buy the cereal, I still have some control over even that type of food.
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